27.Meeting

DIARY LOG :0209

20’FEB

‘‘Hi, kahaan hain tu?'' She asked

''Bharatpur'' I said

‘‘Why there?''

‘‘Friend’s marriage''

'' Bride or groom?''

‘‘Bride''

‘‘Tu Delhi to aaya hoga?''

‘‘Yes''

‘‘Why didn't you call me?''

‘‘I didn’t have any plan to meet you''

'' I don't know, you are coming tomorrow. That’s it!'' She ordered.

‘‘Can’t say anything now''

‘‘You just shut your damn mouth, Suchi has already told me that, you have a flight to catch tomorrow from Delhi,''

Assailing continued

''I am taking off from office tomorrow and you are coming. That’s final''

10 seconds silence

‘‘Bolega kuch?'' raged voice still on.....

‘‘Nothing such, am following your order to keep my damn mouth shut''

 ‘‘Shut up! What do you think, you will get an escape so easily from me, never kamine, it will never be done.....''

NEXT DAY

1000 hrs, NIZAMMUDDIN STATION.

‘‘HEY Suchi, where are you?'' I called Suchi

‘‘Sorry yar, can’t be there, I have to go to uncle's place, some urgent work have come'' said Suchi

‘‘Ok, no problem dear''

'' You don't worry, she will call you in a while”

‘‘Ok''

Phone rang

''Come to Pandav Nagar, near AKSHARDHAM crossing,’ she continued

“Ask to any auto rickshaw, he will take you there...”

1100 hrs, AKSHARDHAM turn

Pandav Nagar, residential colony in East Delhi, India. It is situated by the Main Mother Dairy Road and NH 24.The back side of the colony is across the road from the famous AKSHARDHAM Temple.

She was supposed to be there at the back side.

It's been more than three years since we last met. Today, I was going to meet her again. My heart beats were but obvious on high. Blood was pumping in higher rate than ever. I  always wanted to avoid meeting with her to save myself from this situation. Everything was seemed amazing to me, even though I didn't even know what kindda reaction she had stored for me.I thought I reached little earlier..so I continued with my waiting session.Meanwhile I surveyed the area, I was sitting in the hard well rock of the road side, over viewing the whole area, dreaming about walking together on the footpath some day. A distant away, Akshardham Temple was giving the clear look, now a days it is a pilgrim kindda thing, no one ever wants to lose the chance of visiting it. AKSHARDHAM Temple or Swaminarayan Akshardham, the Hindu Cultural complex in Delhi that displays millennia of traditional Hindu and Hindu culture, spirituality and architecture. Who the damn one would wanna miss the chance of visiting a Guinness book of world record holder of world's largest comprehensive Hindu Temple? The grand ,ancient style ,ornately hand carved stone temple has been built without structural steel, all though it is in dispute with three other temples in Tamilnadu ,those are claimed to be larger than AKSHARDHAM. Anyways the mesmerizing beauty almost made me unison with its flow that attracts almost every tourist who comes to visit Delhi. It showcases the essence of India's ageless art, borderless culture and timeless values... Anyways I decided to let the ancient beauty to had some patience in making me visit itself as I was eagerly waiting some other beauty to show up. 

Phone rang again...

‘‘Have you reached?''

‘‘Yeah! Waiting for you to appear''

‘‘Cross the road, you will see me.''

I lifted my eye range to cover up few more meters of trajectory, she didn't show up...road was overpopulated with traffic, it would gonna take a while to cross. There were lots of diversions, that made my destination somewhere in doubt. I tried to break through the traffic mob. Penetration showed some effect. Something came into the vision area.I caught sight of a girl standing just on the other side of the footpath,examining what was probably the latest car that she had never seen before. She was there. She was really there. The whole three years of unforgotten memory was there. The mesmerizing feeling of everything was there....she was in black, complete black with some leftover that was her charming, pearled face...long black hairs were not in a mood to rest. They were flying, synching with the air waves, few strands were all in trying to cover up the leftover (face) but a smooth flap of her left hand was continuously dominating them. Arteries were working beyond their capabilities coj of my heart that raised its pumping speed of almost never. Even I could feel by mere placing the palm on the left side chest. Black velvet top with a black jeans and black open flying hairs, it was  making me perplexed .She was like dipped in chocolate, bronzed with elegance, enameled with grace, toasted with beauty...a secret cup of gladness, a native land in neither time nor space, MY LORD. She was the beauty in a black...all of sudden a heavy vehicle just appeared in front of me. It was Tata 409 almost skidded to get a halt. With its entire full break applied.

That woke me up from the world of beauty, brought me back to the reality...I found myself in middle of the road....with full of traffic, just a second away from  severe death...with all assaulting from traffickers’ I crossed the road and reached to her.Even from a distance ,she was more beautiful than he remembered,and for what seemed an endless span of time,I couldn't say anything.

‘‘Tu chal, tujhe to main batati hun'' she continued

‘‘What the hell do you think of yourself?''

 “Nothing” My voice was still dyeing in my throat.I was still not in a state to feel her presence, Situation took me somewhere else actually. I was in some other world accompanied her, all though she was standing real in front of me. Her imaginary presence was giving me the immense delight to have with her but that was in the other world and I wanted to be there for entire life. If I was given a chance I would have abducted her to from her world to that imaginary world of mine. However she was still standing there and was pouring on me. Every spoken word of her was giving me no sense but a breeze of fragrance, the fragrance of memory what we had earlier when we used to meet so frequently. There was something that continuously loosing charm, charms of living, charm of rejuvenate.

“Oye kahaan hain? Where have you lost?” She jerked me.

“Huh! Huh! I am here”

“What damn thing is in your mind? Who the hell is she?”

“No One!”

“Then why aren’t you listening to me.?”

“I am listening…”

“Huh! You have changed”

We went to her house. It was a flat. First floor, single BHK. three tenants; She was residing with  Suchi and Suchi’s friend, unknown to me. Room was at its utmost cleanness, a kitchen right to the entrance, one mattress was in veranda and other big one in the bedroom. No bed with legs; all were in the floor but with pure shine. I had 4 hrs to catch the flight. The only 4 hrs, to question all the unanswered. The only 4 hrs, to meet her for the eternity, with no hope in mind to meet her up again.

She brought some flour and started preparing food for both of us as it was going to be lunch time.I was staring at her in the kitchen. She was still taking my breath away and her every glimpse was pushing me back to those old days when we used to have weird conversation and thought if anyone heard us right then, we’d be put into a mental hospital. But today we were dead silent. We had many things to speak but we had developed the pre talk manners in past three years that restricted us to start the talk first .I had decided to not to fight with her in any case. Even I discarded all the motives of questioning anything. The innocent she was looking, made me helpless. I just wanted to spend some good quality time without wasting any, on past grudges. That would never gonna fruit up, I knew that well. Already I was running out of time and my questions would never be answered. She had shattered my all rules of meeting that was just been made for her especially.

Huh! What could I do? Sometimes you have to break the rules to free your heart. It was an ultimate motive for attaining bliss of the self, with just a few compromises for those few special souls accompanying you.

“So how’s your professional life going?”

“It’s good, company is growing, salary is good, and perks are good” I told with the constrained mood.

“And personnel?” without making eye contact like the previous question she apprehensively asked.

I did wait sometime to get some eye contact but she didn’t raise up “it’s good, Mom dad shifted back to native house, was busy there quite a while, now all settled, job place is also good, new area, new places to visit, new friends, it’s good” I answered very firmly. She was still busy in making food, no raise, and no reaction.

“And how’s yours?”I asked

“Too busy yaar, office to house and house to office, whole day is just vanishing in this commuting, that’s why I have shifted to Suchi’s” she continued

“Office is also near; it saves my lotsa time, now I can spend some time with friends” She was so free in saying this things which made me realize that how much bounded she was feeling while questioning me.

“Still you can’t spare time to call some old friends” I teased her

“I knew you would put this question sooner or later but the answer is …. ” she stopped for a moment then started

“Actually matter was what…..”Again stopped

 I interrupted

“There is a subject called behavioral science where ‘actually’ term only comes first, when something lie or some uncertain thing is to be said”

“And I don’t want you to bother for just a silly question…”

She responded nothing…

1300 hrs: 2hrs left

Lunch was over;  to relax some, we went over to bed room. Room was artistically managed. One laptop with reliance net connect. Rack was fully decorated with different crafts and sheets. Mattresses were lying on the floor with glossy multicolor bed sheets all over of it and a big size glossy off white Cashmere Blanket. I was sitting at the door side diagonally opposite to her. A few feet distance of us was going to be miles of, in just a few hours. The only thinking that was spoiling me there was, how to devoured those few feet but I couldn’t .I was lost on a wave then after, dream on, on to the heart of the sunrise, sharp, distance. How could the wind with so many around me, lost.

“Have you found someone?” She asked after thousand of waves get settled down.

“Nope! Not yet” I said

“And you?”

“Na! not yet too”

She continued

“But why not, any girl gets you up till yet? You are too good for any girl” {

“Hmmmm” I shrugged.

“What about you? Can’t you forget him?” I asked

“He is gone case, He is nothing to me…….but it will take some more to heal everything and until then I don’t want any other one to play with me….”

“But some other one can heal you up too, even faster. It never gonna be easy if you bring up a wall in between”

“If a girl has a wall up. It’s because it was built brick by brick, lie after lie. Heartbreak after heartbreak, and who else know these things better than you.?”

“Hmmm”

“You know my case well, why you are not mingling yet?” She teased me.

“I am just waiting for you”

She just gave a half smile when heard that.

“It means you have no girl in your life yet! Ha?” She was so profound in her words that I was left unanswered; her obviousness showed me the reason behind her question.

“The Only girl ever come in my life, is you.” I was not in the state to wait for her answer; I already got that in her eyes.

To confirmed my guessing, I repeated again

“The only, that has ever come in my life, is you and it always be.”

“But……I…..mean……I can’t…..” stammering and flickering of her words were in the unison.

“Hey hey hey! I am not demanding anything…we are friends and we always are…and you will always be my first girl after mom……..”

“You know! Suchi told me about that once we came to your college, but I thought it was just a misunderstanding…..” 

“You can never teach a guy to feel the way, you want to be felt. You have to wait for him or her to do it in his own way at his own time. And I know that very well.” I told her with little discontent. Weather was not so hot but still I was kind of suffocated there. I was sitting still there. A bead of sweat dripped down my forehead and rested precariously on my brow. 

14:20hrs

“Anyways, it’s time” I said while watching on the watch, it was giving me the signal to depart.

“Oye! Sit na! Don’t know when will we meet next? , please don’t go now, sit for a while” She insisted me. The way she told me, held me there. I was fixed, down in the memory lane, I was again get stuck with her. 

 “I will miss you even more” She said and continued

“I miss you; miss those days, when we were together; I miss when we used to talk every day; I miss when we could do whatever we wanted; I miss when you didn’t live 5 hours away; I miss when we hugged  like we would never see each other again.”

  “Hmm” I was quite silent, staring her. The flash in her eyes, those seemed so contented

“Didn’t you, miss me…..you should miss me,,,,even you have to…tell me??… tell me when did you miss me? tell me na?” she never lose tenacity, but her innocence would always wiped out the bitterness from it. And from anywhere that brought some smile on me…

“OK! Ok! To be frank and true to you I never did miss you…..never!” I was waiting for some shriek and if I didn’t continue then, it would gonna be the real rain on me.

“I have been missing you since the day we got apart. I miss when you used to tell me the stories of what happened during the week. I miss when we used to stay up all night talking up about the most random shit. I miss when you didn’t annoy me, I miss when everyone was close; I miss when swearing was such a bad thing to do. I miss when things were simple and having fun didn’t require getting baked.  I miss when we didn’t spend hours and hours on facebook or twitter to talk, to meet. And I miss when we didn't catch feelings easily.”

Few things I could say to her ,a Few I couldn’t. I miss Her laugh. Her smile. Her hands. Her voice. Her walk.. Her hair. I wanted to tell her that “I miss you, all day, every day. And you can't even imagine how pathetic it makes me feel, because I don't even know if you miss me back” but couldn’t say.

A mysterious shyness was all surrounded her, she wasn’t saying anything but her eyes were hiding something, that something which was closely relevant, something that ought to reveal. But she was behaving like a mystic. She said nothing but tenderness, affection and a concern for a dupe was clearly came out on surface. Finally she revealed

“I miss when you used to say you would always be there...”

I knew this would definitely come up someday and I ought to answer it

“I was there all the time; I always had an eye on you. I needed you to be strong, I needed you to be self dependent, and already you were running out of belief on someone. I didn’t want you to believe on some other one else to lesson your pain.”

“Do you know what's hard about being strong? Nobody might know and realize it when you're in trouble.  I needed you that time and you were not there….” Said she

I said ….

“Anyways, it was past, nothing can I do now to make that on my side. You got over it…that is good enough for me,,,I expect nothing more than that”

The worst feeling in the world, is knowing you did the best you could and it still wasn’t good enough

I couldn’t bear the situation; I needed to get an escape as soon as possible…

15:00 hrs

I took a leave and headed towards airport...I already got a message that flight had been delayed by 3 hrs. I could easily smell that something more good than me had already been taken place in her life and she was hiding from me.

It almost came into my notice that, after all past happenings which had staggered her, she already got over it. She was happy now. She needed no attention from any one, she just needed to live the life by her own and for anything bad, she had many  to deal, besides me for good. There are certain people who aren't meant to fit in your life, no matter how much you want them to be there and it ‘s good for you to know your worthiness in someone’s life likewise .However if your presence does not add value to someone’s life..Then your absence should make no difference!. I heard this somewhere but never knew that it would fall upon me someday……………

                                                                                            

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26.REALLOCATION AND SLANG

15:00hrs,Vir's Room..

“Hey Vir! What are you doing?” Ziya phoned on chill winter noon.

“Nothing such, just on the way to mars, am shooting all the asteroids come in between but running out of ammunition now”

“What?&$??  Are you lost of your mind?” Ziya surprisingly asked

“Hmm kind of, I am losing my body. I was trying hard to sleep but some damn hard mosquitoes wanted me to have some conversation with them. But I dare refused that. In result, they declared a war and attacked me all together, then out of fury I had killed some, but my mosquito coil gets finished, that’s it.”

“Hmm, so what’s the status now?” Ziya innocently inquired.

“Ae le! What I have said? Shooting asteroids baby but running out of ammunition” Vir had no strength to talk, he had arrived last night after diwali vacations, early morning classes had ruined his night sleep, after a long arduous hours of lectures he returned back to room and on the way to took a nap, when all this mosquito crap happened and on the top of it, Ziya also joined mosquito gang to spoiled his revival.

“Look Vir, I can’t get you what you are up to but I wish you will get well soon……………”

“Thanks…So tell me?” Vir asked

“Hmm…nothing” Ziya skeptically said.

“Arre…what the hell reason did it compelled you to call me?” Vir sarcastically questioned….but was calm too.

“Oh yeah yeah ! I forgot almost………Actually we are planning to go out, for dinner tonight, if you are not feeling well, then we can drop it for today, will plan it some other day” Ziya worryingly said.

“No, No, need not to cancel, I will come. Just need some time to keep my eyes close, that’s it” said Vir

“Ok, then Ronak will pick you up in the evening”. Ziya hung up the phone.

2000hrs, CONVENIO RESTAURANT

“How’s your health Vir, Ziya was saying, you were not feeling well” Shikha caringly asked.

“I am all Ok, thank you” answered Vir.

“So what’s the menu? I am starving” Said Vidish.

“Nice restrau!” Nikita graded the restaurant with pouring some pinch of Spanish accent on it.

“Yeah! Nice ambience, by looking up the interior no one could say that it’s been made in the fuel station, just a floor above”. Ronak acknowledged that by giving some additional some description.

“Why Miss Aanya is so worried?” Vidish asked.

“Yaar, I am worried about my studies, I have been lagging so much since last two months that it becomes impossible for me to match up.” Aanya explained.

“And after couple of weeks, madam will be going for her brother’s marriage” Ziya added up the information.

“Hmm, matter to fret” Vidish responded.
Vidish continued " Beta Vir ,control your emotion,staring is not a good thing at all" 
"I am not staring ,it's just I was thinking something so it doesn't matter wherever my face posture directed "
"and what are you thinking,,,,,if you don't mind ,please condescend on us" asked Vidish.
Vir signaled Vidish to come near ,with a very low voice or near to whisper he said "The worst part of going out with a female friend is that the rest of the unknown hot girls think I am committed to her"
"And tragedy is that they have various options here to think more about that "
Vidish chuckled and rewarded him a salute
"I heard that" a grin look welcomed both of them form Ananya.
"Me too and we would like to say the same about you again" Ziya also joined in the grin.
"If it's start with A and end with E then no need to say ,I can understand your frustration" Vir Cajoled them
"But you are really an A$$ H**E!"  the gr-inner from both of them was so low profile that rest of them were unaware of the happenings.

Meanwhile food had arrived and served.

“Anything else madam?” Waiter directed towards Shikha.

“One ‘Bundi Ka raita’ please!, madam ji just love it” Said Vir.

“So what’s new guys? How’s your Diwali?” Nikita addressed the whole.

“It was good.” Everyone posted their consent letter with the same tag.

“I am thinking of finding a new room. Old room is too congested for two people “  Ronak broke the chain of formal talks.

“Hey SJ, why don’t you find a room for three guys, so that you three can shift there, that will be fun”. Excitingly said ZIya.

“Yeah! Why don’t you do that, make sure that landlord won’t have any problem with our entry” Said Nikita.

“That will be really fun, we could come there, chat there, enjoying, no hostels limits, you guys have to come neither to hostel, nor we have to tolerate our landlady’s screech” Said Aanya.

“That’s gonna be problem, I have to seek out permission from mom-dad, and they will surely denied that.” Vir refused the proposal.

“Why so? Can’t you convince them!” said Ziya.

“Not only problem is with my parent’s approval, but also problem persists with leaving my present roommate.” Vir was in no mood to switched room.

He didn’t want to ruin his main purpose for the sake of his pass time. He knew very well that, once he got indulge fully fledged into them, he will be no more in the race of being a good engineer, his study would surely go drained. Uncle’s STONE statement was still creating echo in between his ears.

“You can make everything possible but only when, if you want it” everyone was trying to convince him. Ronak was all quiet.

“Please Vir, do something Na! It will be great fun. From all the fun we are just one yes away of yours.” Anaya’s words hit him hard or might be he was fading up.

“Ok guys’ enough! I have heard what you have said or feed in to my ears.” Vir continued

“Give me some time to think. But until then no one will discuss it again” Vir ended up the discussion.

FEW DAYS LATER:- IN VIR’S ROOM

“Are you gone nuts Vir? You are leaving us just because of that damn silly girl” Anup annoyingly said

“What the hell are you thinking of yourself, you are going to ruin your life Vir, I must say!” Karun said with the same annoyance

Outrage had burst up in the room. His roommate Vijay was saying nothing, he was quiet. All the others living in the same house was almost on VIR. Vir was accompanying his roommate. Both of them knew very well that decision was taken already. It’s just the informing procedure, which was going on. Vir knew, he was doing wrong but some unidentified force compelled him to do so. He didn’t know whether it was the attraction of fun he had been living in last couple of months or something else, he  didn’t want to aware of reality. He just wanted to flow that was in the motion.

“Listen Vir, one day you will have to pay for that, the decision you have taken will gonna be the most unforgiving and exacerbate deed you have ever done” kind of curse it was from one of his friend.

Same Evening: 1800hrs

Vir: Hi Mom!

Mom: Hello beta, how are you?

Vir: I am good Mom! I have left the old room; have shifted with Ronak near coaching centre.

Mom: Hmm, Finally it happens what I have feared about. The way you were behaving in vacations .I could smell that easily, Anyways nothing to say dear .take care…talk to your baba

Vir: Hi Baba!

Baba: Hello Beta, what’s up?

Vir: first class Baba!

Baba: So beta, Mom was saying, you have shifted your room.

Vir: Yes Baba.

Baba: Well beta, according to your mom, you have done wrong but for me you have done what you want to, and doing your will is the right thing.

Vir: Thank You Baba

Baba: But remember one thing. I don’t know about the decision, you have taken, how much it will support you?

But if it goes wrong, for the time being until it get worse, get prepare yourself for its consequences, it will help you in near future. You will never feel ashamed of your decision then. Never….

Vir: Yes baba. I will remember that. Always…..

2000hrs, Vir’s old room

“Hey man! Hw’s you doing?”It was Ritesh came to visit.

“Hi! Nothing man, just paying last visit to the house.” Vir was drooling in dismay. He wasn’t happy at all.

He was sitting in the porch, watching some kids playing there in the terrace of neighborhood. Diwali lights were still glittering, they were not been taken out. Light was pouring on the open terrace although sky is all lonely; moon was on its verge to appear. A small fraction of moon was not sufficient to lighten up the terrace. Some master bulbs were continuously flickering, that create some reflection on Vir’s face. It seemed like the thought process on which he was running then was setting some synchronization with the flickering lights.

“Yeah! I heard that from Vijay, your roommate” Ritesh continued.

“But you are not looking happy?”

“I don’t know man! What should I feel now, I really don’t know” Vir answered.

“Hmm ! Is this your decision or someone else’s?” asked Ritesh.

“No no no! Decision is all mine but problem is, I don’t know whether it is wrong or right”

“But you are looking depressed, what does it supposed to mean?”Ritesh questioned.

“Hmm, that’s what my conscience can’t figure out,”

Vir continued

“Do you know?  In last few days, I have changed, what I am right now, I was not used to be, I have never ever thought of leaving Vijay. ”

Vir continued

“it’s only me because of which Vijay has come here leaving his house, the day we have reached here, these all guys, Vijay, Karun, Anup, everyone were crying, were missing their home, and I was the one who was consoling them, telling them that “watch me, be like me, don’t cry like girls, I will show you what’s life outside the house” and you can’t believe everyone was stopped except Vijay, he was still crying.”

“That kind of boy he is, and damn me! What the hell I am doing now?”

“Hmm, kind of pseudo Vir emerging now! 100% agree with you Vir, I have never seen you so depressed ever”

“Well I am not depressed, I am just confused, about my doings, I am leaving this house, which is final, and I have done wrong. Now what?”

“Now what, what?” Ritesh asked

“Now what means, what I have done is done, will face the after effects in coming future, now what can I do to rectify myself”

“And the bugger is, Vijay is quiet, he said nothing. No yelling, no hard words, nothing, that is bothering me, Vijay’s quietness killing me,

“Now what do you want?” Ritesh asked.

“What I was wondering that, isn’t it possible that Vijay will yell at me” Vir was really wondering

“What? Are you gone mad, if Vijay is not yelling at you, it’s good Na! Just leave him .What’s the need of this god damn drama?” Ritesh was surprised on Vir’s wondering.

“Arre yaar, try to understand, once he yell at me, I will be free of guilt feeling, it’s obvious that I have done wrong but ,all the other house mates  have done their job of shouting and screeching, so  I am free from them but Vijay’s turn is still left.  ”

“One yell and all mistakes of mine will be considered ok. I won’t have any problem with that”

“What a Nau-tanki Bhai you are? unbelievable. And mean too” Ritesh continued

“Just to lower down your part of crime you want Vijay to take some share of yours, egotistic, selfish”

“Yeah, yeah! I know very well. Chal chal get to your work, do some provocation, rest I will manage” Vir’s face had changed; slyness was pouring on all over his face.

Children were still playing there but Ritesh could see only one big child, that was sitting with him in the terrace, he was chuckling on him, he couldn’t figure out how to treated Vir. After so many thoughts finally he gave up and went down the house to implement the Vir’s strategy.

Within an hour.

“Happy now, everything went on as you wanted. So now you can get some air, free from your so called guilt feeling” Ritesh had made Vijay to pour on Vir a tons of slang.

“Yeah! Now I am breathing perfectly. A great burden just slip down” Vir was contended

“Tell me one thing?”

“Yes dear, you can ask anything, I owe you that much of at least for this great favor you have done” said Vir

“Well in that case, How could you bear so much of gaalis (abusive terms)? Don’t you ever feel for these?  What Fuels your madness?”

“Well some think I’m hyper & some think I’m hilarious. But I just like seeing people smile. I hate seeing sad people. And when I am the reason of my hate, I certainly used to do some madness then, which makes someone relief, that makes me happy as well, else what these slangs are made for?”. Vir’s went all out of his botheration field.

“By the way, everyone should ready for consequences”   Vir never forgot his BABA’s word, no matter in which way he implemented that…

“I’ll never understand you….I don’t know if I’m supposed to try and figure it out or just say fuck you………” Ritesh surrendered finally….

“Hmm. matter of thought, but problem is I have thought so much today. Now at this moment, I have nothing left to think, can we spare it for some other time, I will definitely answer you then .“.

“You will never change Vir, never”.

To be continued…………..

25.STONE

‘‘Waiting for you, come fast'' Fatso hung up the phone.

 Half an hour past

'' What’s this yaar? where to go so early in the morning? Do you have any kind of idea, how much of energy is needed to break down the gravity of bed in this awesome chilling morning''

'' Ummm nope! And don’t even care'' Fatso indifferently answered.

‘‘Hmm still I want you to know, this weather gives me adversary.  The amazing dead feeling, when chill water pour all over your body and the sensation when every drop of water pinching your body and making you stiff like frozen ‘‘

‘‘Hmmm so what the hell do you want, wanna come or not?''

''then what I am supposed to do here standing in front of you, I can't make you explain but it's really tough to wake up and bath as well so early in the morning ,that's it. ''

‘‘How do you get so much of energy to talk so so much in this so called damn chilling weather?''

'' Here I am telling you about my terrible condition in trying to reach you and this all seem any kind of joke to you?  Ridiculous!''

‘‘Bro please take a zip on your mouth and what the hell you are wearing in feet? Sleepers!!! Saale if by any chance you will become an engineer still you will be in this damn sleepers''

“Arrre, these are not sleepers yaar, these are sandals, and I am pretty comfortable with it, I am tired with wearing shoes, these are ruining my happiness.”

“Gadhe, have you seen these sandals seriously? These are below standards, what kind of happiness you are getting from this, I really can’t understand”

“Boss, there are some rules of happiness: 1. don’t Hate 2. Don't Worry 3. Have fun 4. Expect Less 5. Live simply, so moral is Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy. And by the way this happiness never gonna last for life,so do what you want to, before you start living to make others happy.

“You never gonna change Vir, never…you are and will always be ‘CHAPPAL WALA ENGINEER’.”

''Hmm, by the way where are we up to?''

''My friend's house, Suman’’

‘‘Hmmmmm''

‘‘Just to convey Diwali greetings to her and to her family, it’s been a long time since I have met her, that’s it.''

‘‘Ok ok, I am not demanding any clarification, let’s go.''

Fatso wanted to clarify last statement of Vir too but he gave up on a single thought to avoid the further shootings from the mouth gun.

‘‘Here we are, bro please keep your lips close enough to not to speak''

‘‘Ok ok, even I don't want to.''

'' Namaste uncle, Happy Diwali Uncle'' fatso with over elegance, convey his greetings to uncle

''Son!, this time you appear very early to wish, we have just celebrated Diwali two days ago, don’t you think ,it's too early to wish when a whole year is left for next Diwali to come up....why so early? ''

‘‘Umm, point!!! , uncle has a point'' Vir was giggling while uncle was taking Fatso.

'' No uncle, we have come here to express post Diwali wishes.''

‘‘Anyways come in, have a seat, Suman will come in a while''

''So , what are you doing now a days? Are you both in the same class with Suman?''

“Yes Uncle! But we were in different school.”

“Hmmm so how do you know Suman?”

“Uncle, actually we were………”Fatso was deep down digging into trouble pot. Vir was quiet and enjoying too .Fatso was not so comfortable in continuing this conversation with uncle. Uncle had hell of time, it seemed he had nothing to do and luckily he got the knock, those were Fatso and Vir. Fatso was really in need of an escape; He wanted to handover everything to Vir but couldn’t find any paddle to turn up.

“Yes Son! You were saying something….!”

“Uncle, we were actually….”Fatso was on his way to stammer, which he generally took the mode when some unusual talk, he was heading to.

“You guys are so quiet types, one is stammering and other has nothing to do with speak stuff”

Uncle continued

“Today’s generation always acts weird, they think about something so much to the point of not being able to talk about it. I must say!”

“Hey Fatso! How are you man? Long time, no see….ha?” Suman had appeared with sweets and snacks, such a goddess she was seemed to Fatso.

“Hi, actually…” Fatso couldn’t figure out whom to answer first but Suman understood.

“Papa, let them on me...You go outside, Sharma uncle is asking for you”

“Ok beta! I was just asking like that, no serious talks…”

With no serious talks uncle took Fatso to the acme of embarrassment.

“Ok then, you guys carry on, I will be coming in a short while, after then we will complete our unfinished talks”

“A friend in need is a friend indeed. Bach gaya beta” Vir didn’t forget to punch Fatso again.

“Don’t mind guys, my father is lill bit critical, he would always interrogate my friends...” Suman tried to calm the situation.

“hmm,like he gonna be his son-in-law ” Vir ran his thought process

 For an hour or more, Talks continued, simple talks, formal talks, silly talks, ridiculous talks, unusual talks, spy talks…..almost non-sense but sensually talked. Fatso was in talk whereas Vir was in sweets

 “So children, having fun ha?” Uncle appeared again.

Fatso urged Vir to take on Uncle

“Yes Uncle, sweets are so delicious, homemade  ...ha?”

“No beta, these are from the NARNOLIYA sweet shop”

“Oh! That’s the same shop from where my father used to buy sweets” Vir was carrying the conversation towards absurdness.

“My father too” Fatso also added his point, the only point where he was pretty much sure and seemed usual to him.

“What are you doing nowadays?”All of a sudden, Uncle threw his question arrow straight towards Vir.

“Nothing uncle, I am preparing for Engineering entrance.”

“Oh! IIT, but it’s very tough, not so easy task, you have to undergo very rigorous and arduous preparation.”

Uncle continued

“These days’ children are wasting their time and money in the name of coaching and tuition, Do you know? How tough is to earn so much of money for your parents, and they let you guys to ruin it for some silly coaching outside your home where no one is there to watch you.IIT is not children’s play my dear. To be a true IIT aspirant, one should have to forget everything, even Diwali too.”

Vir’s eye was wide awake, he was trying to contemplate, on whose behalf he was bearing all the rage of him “You are absolutely right Uncle Ji. That is why; I have opted to go for AIEEE and state entrance. ”

Vir tried all his best to not to extend the argument by any mean.

“But beta, nowadays there is nothing in being engineer, lots of students without having sense of self-responsibility, they just want to escape from their parents and use this magic weapon ‘coaching’.”

Uncle continued again, he was preventless making others helpless.

“My son is also doing some coaching, don’t know, what he is doing but I am pretty much sure that is almost nothing”

“Gotcha! Son’s rage was pouring all over us” Vir’s contemplation got a destination.

“Ha uncle! Again you have a point” Vir was getting contented as he was thrown out of the main cause.

“Have you ever seen STONE?”

“Ha uncle! What’s in a stone? Millions of stone we have seen and more. ”

“Nothing in a stone really! Everything is beneath it...You have to just lift it out”

Ambiance was gaining little bit one sided play. Quiet as well as cynical, uncle was on its all form, Vir and Fatso were almost quiet. There was nothing for them to speak out.

Finally uncle again stated his final words

“Once you lift the stone, you will found at least 100 engineers. So what’s the need of being a 100^th part of millions?”

That’s it, story ended .Everything ended there. There was nothing to discuss any more. Uncle had cut down all the linkage, to lengthen the conversation. To present anything for any justification about Vir’s decision would gone cliché as uncle was supposed to mean.

Both of them left after a while soon and when reached out of uncle’s range, they were just laughing out loud.

“So beta, I couldn’t hear anything from you inside, what happened?” On the continuation of laugh Fatso teased Vir.

“Bhai, if I lasted for any more minutes there, I would definitely develop a strong thought of rebel against my actual doings’’

‘’Huh!!  A hundred millionth stone rusted engineer, Horrible it was.”

“Hmmm” Fatso responded

“What a pathetic situation, it was? Son’s failure or father’s indifference towards son made us OBNOXIOUS INCONSIDERATE UNCOUTHED MORONS” concluded Vir.

“Anyways Diwali over ,apun to chala fir se udhne ( I am going to fly again)and I must tell you ,this stone will never leave my memory lane, it’s a complete blockage and I must have to arrange clear escape from it ,leaving rest all 100 millions beneath it”.

“HA HA HA HA, Saale Chappal Waala Engineer ,ja beta udhle,”

“Hey, have you met Aanya, are you going with her?”

“Nope! She has gone already, madam ji is lagging on her study; wanna make up as early as possible.”

“And what about your’s?”

“Apun gonna fly boss, to enjoy my life and let others, study is not my thing”.

To be continued.........................

24.DARKNESS

3:00 hrs...

Silence was the only one that was roaming there in the two bhk 2nd floor of the multistorey apartment...all of a sudden an electronic radio device started giving a shriek to challenge the roamer but unfortunately lost in somewhere...

Roy was still sitting on his balcony with a cup of some strange kind of fluid. He always used to address it as tea. But none of his friends were able to respect that fluid as tea or any kind of drinkable thing...neither coffee nor liquor

Lights were taking rest, there were some  glimpses  of color, were trying hard to brighten up  the room after regular interval....color of screen saver that was changing continuously which brought some light in the room but that was a little less than enough.... darkness were on its verge to taking the hold somehow

The device was still buzzing...Trying it’s level best to made the other active thing stop from his usual process so as Roy was trying by ignoring the buzzer..He was still in the balcony ...and moreover no one wanted to discontinue....

Buzzer was on its 5th try, to continue its buzzing....Roy was looking lost somewhere, was still sitting in the chair,  with continuous sipping process.

While 7th unsuccessful attempt of buzz for being attended, a knock on the door joined it...After unteempth knocks and hits, door knob got rotate and Faizal entered the room.

‘‘Why don't you pick up the phone?’’ with the same as usual distressed, questioned voice of Faizal, conversation started

‘‘Why are you calling me?'' with the same ice cool, dead, indifferent voice of Roy continued the conversation

‘‘How do u know it's only me?''

''I don't know it was you''

‘‘Then why are you saying that?''

''I am just asking a simple question that why you call me right now so late in the night''

‘‘By the way it was Ravi who was calling you.''

Faizal took his phone from the table inside the room and checked. There were 7 miss calls from Ravi's no.

‘‘Where is Ravi?'' Roy asked apathetically.

‘‘How would I know where he is?'' Faizal shrugged

'' Call him up and first tell him to switch the ignition off, his bike will wake up others''

 After few moments Ravi and Faizal were sitting in the balcony with cup of tea not Roy's tea, it was normal or actual tea.

‘‘What have you done with Disha?'' Ravi inquired

No response came...

With mixed feeling Ravi continued ''Listen Roy! If you have done something, then its okay, otherwise I can't tolerate all this, whatever is flowing in the air about you and Disha. ''

Roy didn't response...His sipping tendency was still going on...

''Abey, say something'' Faizal irritatingly

Asked.

''Change the track please, I don't like this crappy shit..'' finally Roy sprouted up with an irrelevant statement...a slow track was playing in the music system that made the ambience bore, but less bore than the questionnaire Roy was attending...

‘‘Why always you make simple things so complicated?'' Faizal bustled.

Faizal continued...

‘‘What do you think? At 3 am in the morning, we come to you just to listen your boring dumb crappy shits...What the hell!!''

 ‘‘Why always your system is playing only rock? I can give you other if you wish'' asked Ravi

While Faizal was on his parental mode Ravi was finding something to eat...instead of answering Faizal, Roy was watching Ravi's activity,

'' 2nd drawer from the right, blue pet box'' Roy directed Ravi.

‘‘You are impossible Roy, why the hell I m talking to you? We are in tension already and you don't wanna give a damn about that''

 With all kind of coldness and indifference Roy tried to finish up the drink but for the sake of the situation, drink was already made itself to finish.

“Where are you going?”Roy stopped Faizal who was about to open the door to took an exit.

“There is no point in sitting with you. It’s already late, we should leave now” Faizal modulated his high pitch voice into calm mode.

“And tea is also finished. Cookies are good Roy by the way” Ravi opened his mouth even though his mouth was so full of cookies that sound waves did some hard stuff to come out.

“Hey guys! Come on! Give your ass some rest, sit here” Roy called them back

“We are not here to take rest so late in the night”

“Yeah yeah! I know very well but you know guys the best conversations happen late at night.”

 Faizal went in, switched off the music player, gave Roy a teasing look, like by switching off the player he made Roy repented for all his sin done to him.

Roy gave him desirable sorrow look in return…Ravi hadn’t finished his eating yet so he kept continue...

“Hmmm...So you guys wanna know, what happened with Disha?”

“Yeah! Why the hell she has been crying for whole week long, you are her friend, I am damn sure you did something to her” said Faizal

“Ha Yaar! We always see her smiling, and suddenly what happened that the happy go lucky girl is just gone to hell” Ravi participated

“She is more frank to you compared to us, although we all are friends but you both are like made for each other. So that is what, bugging us” Ravi ended up his eating as well as the conversation .now both were awaited to initiate only one way talk from Roy

“Hmm, so guys listen to me carefully, I don’t care what you guys think of me after this but it doesn't matter to me. What matters is to believe on, what actually  has happened.”

Both of them gave him a contended look.

“Disha is one of the damn good girls I have ever seen; to be with her a guy would definitely have done some great deeds in his prebirth.”  

“She is beautiful, smart, cute and foremost she knows me very well Every time she speak with her lips, every time she smiles, every time she look in my eyes, she is making my life worthwhile.”

“I would always like her”

Faizal jumped in “See! What I told you, bhaisahab is fallen in love” Faizal gave a teasing look to Ravi

“But why Disha is upset?” Ravi asked

“There’s a little twist in between” said Roy

“What twist? Don’t you love her or she doesn’t?” asked Ravi

“Not like that, guys, look you're not always going to fall for the right person. But that's okay, because when you do, none of the others will matter anymore.”

“So you want to tell us that there is nothing in between you guys, don’t you ever done anything to her?” Faizal annoyingly asked

“We have just kissed, and that was inevitable, do you know the only thing better than the kiss, is the moment right before, when she looks into your eyes and leaves you breathless.” 

“So what’s your fucking problem?, propose her, what are you waiting for??” Ravi excitingly said

“She has a boyfriend working in some other city”

“Oho! So that’s the problem, ok! So first we have to fuck that guy off” Ravi on his aggressiveness...was flying high

“They were about to end up their relation” Said Roy

“It’s a good news, what’s the problem?” said Faizal

Roy didn’t say anything. He lit up a cigarette and smoked like a hell.

Everyone was silent there .Roy switched on the music player, a soft jazz was playing around...

“I have met him. He was a nice guy, perfect for her. Now because of long distance they couldn’t manage time for themselves which raises bitterness in their relation”

 “Oh! Hmm big problem, so what you have decided?” asked the ethical Faizal

“Are yaar! What to decide? What I told? Fuck that guy off. If you are happy with her then be with her” resisted Ravi.

“I don’t love her” Roy said very uncaringly with making circles from the smoke.

“Ae le! Abe are you gone mad or something else has eaten your mind?” Faizal was again going to started. Roy was still quiet.

“I can’t be with her as a lover, I never love her” Roy tried to clear things

“What the hell are you talking?” Faizal asked

“Mmmm I know, I know, Shit! Shit he is talking about” Ravi helped Faizal

“I have seen her tears, you are such a pitiless I must say, nothing in this world is matter to you Na!? She is in pain.”

“I know that”

“No, you don’t know her pain, never! You can never truly understand someone’s pain until you're the one who feels it.”

“Hmm!”

“I have decided! I will be no longer continue this relation, I am backing off”

“Every girls dream is to find the perfect guy, eat without getting fat, and to have a best friend who'll stay true to her!”

“I am not his perfect guy but a best friend who clear all the sweet doubts of her by being true to her”

“Ok don’t love her, but at least you can console her. She will understand gradually but for now you have to be kind on her, say anything to her but don’t ruin your relation like this, she is a nice girl. Don’t end up your friendship like this forever”

“In relationships: 1) don’t lie. 2) Don't cheat. 3) Don't make promises you can't keep. And I know myself, sooner or later if this relation will continue then I will definitely fall for her and I don’t want that.”

“Will you please elaborate?”

“Are yaar! As I already said, I would always like her, right at this moment I don’t love her but you never know when this love seed will get sprouted up then I couldn’t stop myself but for the sake of friendship, to save her love life I have to lie her, I have to cheat her, I will make promises that couldn’t possible for me to keep”

Roy continued

“So it will be better, we end up this episode like this way at the cost of few tears only”

“TU SAALE BHAGWAAN KAB SE BAN GAYA? TERI PERSONALITY KO SUIT NAHIN KARTA” Ravi threw a punch

“What happen to romance, sweeping a girl off her feet, and just wanting to support her and love her for all that she is and not control her and not even say to her? .What is this yaar?.” Faizal was worried.

“So I had a fight with her and being outrageous, I ended up everything with her.”

Roy continued

“I know I was angry and I had made the best speech I will ever regret.”

“Now you guys have to make them together”.

“Wah! Wah! Bhagwaan ji, you have made a clear escape from her and cork us in between”

“Anyways don’t worry about her tears, let her cry….Crying will make the sad out of her”

 “Ok boys! Now it’s time for beast mode. You guys go and have some sleep” Roy finished up the further conversation

“Hmm now it’s time for bro to become an animal, by the way in gym you are monster always not a simple beast or an animal”

Roy didn't want to proceed further. He got dress up meanwhile Ravi and Faizal left the house.

Roy  went to switched off his player as well as desktop, before that, he stood still in front of desktop for a while .his screen saver was showed up someone..

Suddenly clock hit the hour bell; it was 6 in the morning. Roy expressed out nothing and left for the GYM...

To be continued…………….