20.RONAK'S CHOTU

“Why you guys are not going? Are there any problem?” Vidish asked to Shikha and Nikita.

“No no it’s not like that, we already have lagged from our studies because of accident, that’s why we just want to make that up, nothing else!” Nikita gave the explanation.

It could be easily understand that there was some other reason to stay back there in DIWALI vacation And Vir never missed the easy part “That means you don’t want to tell us the exact reason, ok!, no problem girls, we never ask that again”

“Hey Vir! Why don’t you try to understand things, what I have said is the only reason. Now what do you want to listen.” said Nikita.

“Nothing, you have already answered me.”  Vir didn’t want to argue there.

“Today is the end of fair so as the sky show and we have round about 10 hrs left for that, why don’t we hit the plex, at least for two” Vidish was making out the plan for movies in the multiplex.

“Yeah! That would be the best part of the day,perhaps! let’s rock” Vir said.

“Ok! Then, let’s take the girls too” Ronak was thinking to call them before that he gets stopped

“No way! Let’s only be we three, why there is always necessary of girl’s company. Today is our day. They will make us late” Vir annoyed.

With two movies in a row Vir’s disquiet mind somewhat settled down. He never liked to hear lie from them who were near to him that was why he never asks unanswerable question to anyone but if asked he always expected others to answer them with full heart. And his quiet settled conscious mind never let those things to come out so that anyone could realize things.

After movie they still had couple of hours for sky show to start.

“Guys! I have some work with my uncle living here, you go, I will meet you in the fair” Vidish took a leave from there.

Both Vir and Ronak went to Ronak’s room .Sky show timing was after 11 so there was no chance of girl’s participation that made them free for the night at least.

Ronak’s room was not so big but well organized, wall paint was dull, paint layer were peeling off somewhere in the wall but those were well disguised by the damsel’s posters. Wall decorations were seemed to be the joint venture of Hollywood and bollywood .one side was taken by J Lo and other was beautifully handled by Amisha Patel. For Vir Amisha never deserved for the wall but her eyes in that poster was mesmerizing ,it was like a pool in her eyes in which anyone could willingly drown .

“ok ok you made enough staring to her,that is sufficient for today from the ogling point of view for a poster at least” Ronak acknowledged Vir’s gazing.

“Yaar! She is really looking awesome, means what to say I don’t know but whenever I will come to your room my first glance will be on her, that’s true” he was fired up.

“Hmm! You are really….” Ronak was up to something but he let that something into nothing as it wouldn’t change Vir’s perception and he knew it very well.

“Hmm, tell me, how’s your life going .I mean love life?”

“Yeah! It’s going smooth, too smooth...Huh!” Ronak said

“What happen? You are not feeling good with my question?” Vir asked

“Nothing such, everything is fine! I was thinking about other things, it was about…..” Ronak again left the incomplete sentence

“Oh! Family problem?”

“No”

“Problem in study?”

“No yaar!”

“Vidish?”

“Nope”

“Financial?”

“Not yet”

“Ok cut the crap; tell me, what happen with Aanya?” Vir hammered

“Arghhh…hhhh why do you ask that?” Ronak jerked, he never imagined that kind of firmed question with so confidence.

“Uuummmm! Just a pick from one of the random questions I have in mind” Vir shrugged

“No the way you asked, its look like you know about something, what is it?”

“I don’t know anything yaar! I asked you just like that”

Vir continued “but……but it looks like there is something in between, tell me…tell me ……tell me.”

“You are really an A**H***!”

“Yeah I know that even many others also know .you please proceed with your answer” Sometimes Vir’s kick stunned others and he was gaining expertise on it...

“Nothing yaar ,Chotu is getting away from me, I don’t even able to contemplate things between her and me, but I am continuously noticing that she is gaining distance.”

“Chotu! Chotu! Chotu!, okays  ,so madam ji is chotu also,that’s why she was surprised to hear the name of that child tea provider in the orthopedic hospital”

“We were good friends’ even best friends but her behavior has changed, the way she behaves, the way she takes things now is weird, these are all feeling strange to me, I don’t know what is going on within her. Sometimes she behaves like she is all alone here; sometimes she acts as a five year old Child.”

“Hmm...Seems strange, may be you guys don’t have so much time for yourself to spend together” Vir tried to resolve

“I don’t think so, I never leave her alone. Whenever I was not there, you were there at least and I know how much she is comfortable with you right from the school.” Vir tried to say something but Ronak couldn’t let him, Ronak continued

” If there is any case then she can tell me, after all we are friends who used to share everything except clothes sometime before. She should understand I have a girlfriend now, who comes into my life after lots of hardship. I don’t want to lose her not even Chotu. But she can’t understand things she is such a ……” Ronak was to name her something new but couldn’t able to find that led him stammering

“Geli would be the nice word” Vir helped him

“Yes GELI, she is such a Geli, even in the hospital at the time of Nikita’s accident she behaved weird”

“Hmm, that’s true, she was really behaving weird, she made me talk that much illogical (that was seeming logical for her) I never did before”

“So you tell! What should I do? I don’t want to lose her but I know Nikita’s relationship will bring those circumstances when we have to get apart but before that I want to make our bonding strong enough to get separated” Ronak was very desperate about Aanya, for him Nikita was his world but Aanya was his earth where he wanted to live every breathing moment with Nikita. He knew very well that the moment his earth left him sooner or later he wouldn’t sustained for his world anymore.

Vir was relaxing there in the wooden chair still staring to Amisha. He was eating some biscuits, front legs of the chair was lifted up. He was swaying………….

“Ummm it’s simple which you can’t think, you should talk with her about it. Thing gets simpler when it passes through the channel of talk……”

“When do I talk, after accident, I have to be with Nikita all the time. Whenever she is with me, I Forget almost everything.” Ronak clarified his compulsion

“Ae le! no big deal, I will make that arrange for you” Vir said those things and again continued the staring…

Ronak pulled the chair that made Vir almost fallen down but Ronak caught him” Saale kha jaayega kya isko ab? Let’s go, Sky show will start anytime”

Next day trio went for station to see-off Ziya. On the very next morning they were going to left for home.

Next morning

“I want that big auto; I don’t want to go in this small auto”

(There are two kind of auto ,one run by petrol, small in size, low in speed, not so spacious whereas other one run by diesel, spacious, high speed and always available with music system.)

“Chotu, it’s already 7:30 we have train at 9:05, it will take at least an hour to reach station, so please don’t argue on this” Ronak said

“I don’t know,ther is no music system inside, we still have 30 minutes, just wait for a while, auto will come” Aanya argued

While these arguments were going on, Vir and Vidish were enjoying the tea and ogling at some girls sitting little far away, fun was there as girls were responding the same.

When no solution found out, Ronak interrupted the enjoying guys.

“Hey guys we have a situation here” Ronak explained that to those

“What the hell, is she mad or something, where do we find two such auto so early in the morning” Vir annoyed

“Don’t have any option, we have to find that” Ronak shrugged

“Arree I know these auto guys, for that auto we have to go another stand which is 3 or 4 kms away from here” Vir argued but when getting no response from Ronak  he signaled Vidish and with shrilled mind they went away without a trace.

After 20 minutes, a desired auto came. Vidish came out with wet shirt he was perspiring high.      

”From where do you bring this auto?” Ronak asked

“5 kms away from here” Vidish said

“Where is Vir?” Aanya asked

“Don’t ask me, where he is, he is a complete mad...we only get single auto there which don’t have the music system so he go for next stand which 3 kms away from there. I told him to go there in this auto but that crap shit told me to save money and ran away, don’t know whether he get the auto or failed ”

Five minutes later an auto rushed towards them with a booming sound playing inside. Vir came up.

“Quick guys don’t have time” Vir quickly put luggage in the back of auto. Aanya was standing there in the apologizing mode, she was half smiling, she wanted to come in Vir’s auto but showed her reluctance as Vir was exhaling heavily, half wet, she couldn’t even match her eyes with him.

 Vir came towards her and whispered“madam would you please hop in, I think this vehicle will have enough content to satisfy you. And if not then please adjust I will surely arrange next time.” that was somewhat pleading manner but mixed with tease and anger.

Time was 8:00 A.M

With no words she seated in, Vir took the front seat as usual and told the driver “chal bhai ab khech le, dekhte hain kitna hain dum but 8:45 tak pahucha diyo kaise bhi karke”

“Koi na bhaiya, aap to bas baitho aaraam se”

The cassette player was playing Ronak’s cassette. Ronak was seated with Aanya

On the other auto there were Vidish, Shikha, and Nikita

Whenever Vir tried to watch rear view mirror ,the same half smile face was trying to steal eyes from him.

8:45 A.M

“Mast yaar, yeh hui na baat, dil khus kar dita tu!”

Driver was Punjabi

“Oh .koi gal nahi, tussi menu change laga si, ae waste doura di gaddi”.

Shikha and Nikita were came to see them off

9:05 am train left for destination.

“Oh wow! We are in train, I love it” Aanya was so ecstatic that gulped every other’s happiness, she was jumping and popping like a 5 yrs old retarded girl, all the accompanying person standing there left her alone ASAP ,they didn’t want to be the part of freaky embarrassed travelers in the whole compartment .After a while she gained conscience. Situation came back to normal.

“Ok guys ,we have two upper seats and two middle, So  Ronak and madam please proceed to upper berth no 19 and we are on berth 22.” Vir assigned the seats...

“Hey Ronak come with me for luggage, you guys please be seated, be comfortable, feel as home and Madam ji…I know today you are more than happy and I am pretty much sure you will feel happier once wheels proceed but till then try to grip your flying spirits” Vir left her again with half smile .she tried to say something but morning incident stopped her to argue. She didn’t like Vir at that moment of time, she wanted to fly, she wanted to shout, and she had a crush on train travelling she always loved to be on train, train made her elated, train travelling made her feel free to do anything as compared to Buses, different kind of fast foods, listening to different kind of people, chit -chat, different stations and the berth comfort ability.

Train was leaving the station, both Vir and Ronak waved to Shikha and Nikita. After a while they were about to coming back to their berth but Vir stopped him……...

 Now Mr.Ronak, all you have got is these four hours of train journey, either you will make it or regret it” Vir told Ronak while on the way to get in there berths with luggage.

Ronak said nothing but smiled…

Before they could fix their butts on their respective places, Vir stopped Ronak.

“I was wondering what you have told me about the time when you were not with her but relaxed because of my Presence”

“Who are you talking about?” Ronak asked

“That retarded girl hopping there watching us very suspiciously, waiting for us to go there” Vir signaled him towards Aanya by eyes.

“Ha ha! Yes yes, I have told you, so what do you wanna say? Am I wrong or else?”

“Hmm !!! Well that day Amisha grabbed all my attention, but today, I wanna say something for your statement, there might have chances that you have gripped some sound observations and conclusion obviously but problem is that you used to make your conclusion before complete observation.”

Vir continued...

“Definitely I was with her, but I always observed something missing in her eyes, even I have double triple checked she was not at all a cataract patient but still there was something which always missing in her.”

“may be you think, you have done a great job that you make your friend available with your replacement but things are not like that what we are supposed to have, When one needs you that means in whole world, it can only be you who must be with her not any other one else and for this madam I don't want to take any kind of risk, no one can replace you.”

“What kind of risk you are talking about, to let her alone or to let her with you?” Ronak teasingly asked

“Hmm…don’t let her alone with me…I must say!!!  She is your friend, don’t take her as liability” said Vir.

“Once my teacher had given me two instincts

1. Never forget your friends when you have a girlfriend - you just may need them soon enough.

2. The biggest mistake a man can make is giving another man the opportunity to make his woman smile more often than he does.

Well first instinct is simple to understand and the second equally exist for that girl who is special to you other than your girl.And you are doing the  god-damn mistake of not following these two instincts”

“Hmm…so that is the point, Ok! I got that, and what kind of opinion do you have about yourself” Ronak pushed back on Vir

After a devoting to a long thinking process, Vir again started to think but again failed, finally he got some words

“Ahhhh……mmmmm……..aaaarrrrrrrrrrr    Well if I am concerning…..me ….then may be….no no not may be  …….ok yes! I got it………..I am just a being who talks more than enough, and it never really means the person with me feels comfortable but it sometime means that I let her not talk much and that’s what she really wants at those times”

“By the way, what I was wondering that why I am saying all these to you? And who the hell I am to waste your valuable four hours time?” Vir  knew that very well, Ronak’s turn had been come to hit him but he didn’t want to face that, still Ronak should had to say something and he proceeded

Ronak was too serious but he frequently switched to funny state because of someone’s humorous point of view

“Ha ha ha! You are doing the same thing this time also. Do you know one thing! I have seen many guys who pretend themselves as a happy being by hiding their feelings  and they are beyond excellence on that but for the first time I am with that guy who mix his feelings by expressing multiple feelings, you are so much in talk that sometimes it makes other impossible to find out at which state you are living in…..”

Ronak continued ''It's good for sometime but you are now so habitual of it that in future it will create problem  because you are loosing a general phenomena of a man:-the capability to express his own feelings''

‘‘Hmmm, why everyone says like this I can't understand, if I need anything then obviously I demand for that but if I don't, then what is the need of being pretentious....?''

''ab is ko dekho,bechara paagal ho raha to aa gaya sunaane'' Vir saw the arrival of Vidish with a terrible look he was taking...

“Abe aaoge ki nahi andar,ya gate se hi kudne ka iraada hain? Kahon to main help kar deta hun,sabse pahle is Vir ko fekunga,bitha diya wahaan akele,chalo yaar jaldi..ake;I bechari bore ho rahi hain chori” after a long boring session of Vidish on the berth all alone there,he couldn’t prevent himself to broke in their conversation.,

“abe main to kabse kah raha hun,yeh bhaaisahab chalte hi nahin hain,paka diya saale ne.” Vir again started to change

“ab chalo jaldi varna ,yeh chance bhi jaayega tera aur fir apun RAJA.Ha Ha Ha” Vir pushed Ronak in.

“What Raja?” Vidish asked

“Don’ you know ,we both have the same nick name ,RAJA, now who is the original one, we are discussing here ,but you dumb ass thrashed all my dreams ,I was about to win….HUH!” Vir fuzzed Vidish

They took their space but situation had been changed, Aanya was giving Vir angry eyes while Vir was saving himself by talking rubbish with Vidish…….

“Abe Amisha mast lag rahi hain yaar ,tere room par(Vidish was also residing with Ronak).”

“Abe socks kyun nikaale, it stinks”……..

To be continued................

19.The Insane

Life reverts; it makes you believe that you are not alone. Someone somewhere is just like you, doing his God-damn business of living, same as you. You both are walking parallel like railway tracks, a short uniform distance makes you wide apart from each other .You guys  can feel each other but recognition part is absent and that because of two things basically, Distance or Time or sometimes both. Now what matters, is the suitability and the wait for the perfect time to come up when the  rail of life get derailed not because tracks get wear out but in some moments of life, it really needs some intersections even at the cost of some part of it…..that intersection when you guys meet, the ultimate revolution occurs …

Red - black Alpine jacket resting on the broad chest zipped up to neck, with a flying eagle on the shoulder, full gauntlet cramster gloves were varying the throttle, gear movement was going flexible, they were continuously moving up and down . Every raising throttle was giving a beat from a heavy carbide nozzle. Skulled back with a visor in the front covered the top floor with the assurance of not being able to claim for death insurance in any case when into it.

220cc metallic Blake fire machine was roaring on the road of AERODROME (a kind of small and private airport). The weather was getting worse. Air was just reached at its peak, in no way they wanted to cease down. It was the sign of storm that was knocking on the door to come. Threatening sound of storm could be easily audible, the skull face was in some different mood .It was directing to go along with air… throttle was now in no motion, kind of peace was waiting to agitate…..after a moment…..the machine started, the right hand wrist took a full move, throttle reached at its high value…the ground started to vibrate, atmosphere there was thrilling. First it went for 100 meter run, away from the storm then all of a sudden it took a burn off …got a U-turn…storm was all in its way to hit that now…all the guys standing there had already left the post….on the smooth track of airport, there were only two things those  could stand there, storm and the skull head black roaring machine…….

Now it took race and went straight into the storm, display system in the machine was showing 120 kmph with 4500 rpm. After a while, there was no sign of machine, it was lost, and storm had passed through it. But the machine didn’t get the visibility in the eyesight range of guys standing there, under the hood which was saving them from storm. When storm had passed away the machine came towards the guys. Stopped just an inch before, Skull face climbed down, left the machine on its side stand...

“Are you gonna mad, do you know at what speed you have collided with storm” one of the guy standing there burst out

Meanwhile skull head taken out that brought the real face, with a very serious note he spoke “what do you think, at what speed storm met us?”

“Idiot! It was more than 80 or 100+”

“Then I was at more than 200(120+80) or 220(120+100) +”he stated

Another guy got impatient “do you know what it means? It’s a suicide, clear cut suicide, you are such a freak”

“What suicide guys, that is called fun, you never know until you get experienced, its make me feel alive” he tried to clear his space.

“There is a difference in fun and stupidity, and you dumb-ass are expert in latter one. The thrill of racing on high speed will cost your life one day until n unless you get controls over your insanity and I don’t think you love your life that much” Friend said. They were astonished to watch him in between the storm

“well then only thing I can say to you guys ‘WELCOME TO  MY INSANE WORLD’ Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass… it’s about learning to dance in the rain!” he never liked to got underestimate…he was a lot more than insane actually.

“Idiot! At least for a single time you must give a thought before your so called dance”

“Some of my best decisions are made without thinking...and I pretty much believe in that”

Suddenly whistling started, Guard came, trespassing was prohibited there in the aerodrome and they were just a minutes away to get caught if they wouldn’t ran away.

“Ok guys, let’s go. It’s going to be dark soon” He said as he already saw the guards.

Next day, it’s Sunday 9 A.M

Phone rang, 3 miss call on the cell

9:30 A.M

Phone rang again

 By 10:00 A.M, about 15 miss calls there were being attended on the cell, all of were of same number that was of Faizal.

At 11:30 Am in the phone

“Hello Faizal, what’s up man, any urgency there?”

Harried and distraught voice came from the other side” Come to city hospital ASAP”

12:00 A.M In the city hospital

“What's up Faizal?” He asked

” Where the f**k, you were man?  I had called you so many times, but u damn nut” Faizal scolded him

“Ravi met an accident this morning, He is serious, still in I.C.U.” Said Faizal

“How’s that happened? Is any other one else injured or only him?” He asked

“It’s only him, who else could push his own bike into the drain? Can you believe that how idiot he is?” Faizal seemed mixed up with the incident.

“And you idiot, first go to washroom, look at your face, so horrible at least you should have taken bath before come here, Horrible!” Faizal sent him to washroom

Soon after doctor came up.”We need two bottles of blood, immediately, patient is still unconscious, he has bleeded heavily, he can’t gain sense until he gets some blood, at least two bottles”

“So what’s the problem?” Faizal asked

“Problem is!, we need platelets, which are used to clot the blood, he is running out of platelets, his count is less than 50,000/ml,In medical term we call it thrombocytopenia, your friend has taken drugs for a long time, what we have in our stock are not having such amount of platelets, we have already inquired from other hospitals and blood bank too, but failed”

Doctor continued “That’s why I am asking you, we need some fresh blood, otherwise we can’t stop him from bleeding, so will you please excuse us, we have to make some other arrangements. And please bring the blood as soon as possible.”

Faizal was flabbergasted, he quickly dialed some numbers, but hope gates were closed by then, from nowhere there was any possibility to get the blood so soon. It would take at least 3 hrs to get the blood whereas Ravi had not much time to wait.

“Hey Faizal, what happen? Why are you so distressed? Is everything Ok?” He asked Faizal who was sweating heavily.

“We need some fresh blood; Ravi’s blood is low in platelets. But I don’t have his match of blood and the donor is 3 hrs away from here, I can’t figure out what should I do, I don’t even inform his parents they are in Rajasthan .it will take at least two days to reach here.” said Faizal. He was in total fuzz; he didn’t have anything to help him out in that miserable condition.

“So why are you feeling low, I will give him blood,” He said

“No way! You have just recovered from typhoid, you are not able to give blood, and you already are low in blood.”

“No matters, I have already recovered from that, I can give him” he tried to made him understand.

” That’s not possible, you still need a month” Faizal said

“But” before he said anything Faizal rained on him.

“I already told you , can’t you understand things?, I don’t want to save my one friend at the cost of other, no way you are going to do it, else I will have to end every connection with you from today, please don’t do that, at least for me”

“Ok ok! I am not going to do it, please don’t put these emotional words on me, anyways you sit here, I got to go, I have some work to complete by today.  ” he said

“What are you man? Your friend is hanging between life and death and you don’t have such a god damn time to spend with him in his end time.” Faizal was fed up with him, for him he was such a moron .out of sentiments, out of responsibilities.

“Don’t get hyper buddy, It’s just an hour work I will be right back within an hour” after this words he left the hospital and so as Faizal, who was struggling really hard to arrange blood for his dying friend.

After an hour when he came to hospital, he saw Faizal was sitting there in the ICU in relax mode, blood was dripping to Ravi.

“So how is Ravi, seems he got some red, ha?”  He said

Faizal was so happy to see him “ You can’t believe that, someone from nowhere has donated blood just a few minutes ago ,same group with very high contents of platelets ,doctor says that with that much of platelets count, only one bottle is sufficient.  ”

“That’s good. That’s really good” he said

“You know there was some strange thing about that guy, generally one bottle of blood is allowed to donate by a donor at a time but he was deeply insisting doctor for two bottles of blood, don’t know why but it was really strange”

“That means your ALLAH has sent that man only to save your Ravi, ha?” He didn’t react, simply came outside the hospital, trying to light a cigarette but couldn’t find the lighter.

 After few minutes, Faizal came out “he is now out of danger. They are shifting him to a cabin from ICU.”

“So how was your work, was it been over or still remains”

“No it’s over, my job is done, let’s see what comes?” He said and again start looking for lighter with the cigarette was still settling between the lips.

Faizal gave him the flame with the same lighter of him

He surprisingly said”oh! Thanks bro, how come you get that?”

“Doctor gave me, he said it was fallen down from donor’s jacket” Faizal answered but he was disappointed’

Everything went silent, after an era of silence, he spoke

“Look yaar, if I didn’t do that then we would have lost our friend by now” He tried to console Faizal

“But why are you like this? Why don’t you listen to anyone? Promise, oath, pledge, these kinds of things mean nothing to you, don’t you? Your hemoglobin count is below 12, you are too weak to develop blood in normal then why do you want to kill yourself?”  Faizal yelled at him.

“To be frank, for me, relations are everything, I can do anything for them and this anything means anything .Pledges, promises, oaths, all these kind of unrealistic things only matter until & unless they don’t interfere in my work and if they do then I will happily shattered them all”

“That’s what I am, I know you can’t understand what I am saying and I don’t want to but believe me, even if this happened to you then I would do the same irrespective of anything. Relationships are like drugs; they either kill you, or give you the best feeling of your life.”

He continued

“The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else, and I hate those who try to do this and my friend! I don’t want to hate you”.

He lit the cigarette finally and started making circles out of it, Faizal took a look of him after a few seconds “you know! You are impossible, more I try to understand you more your insanity prevails”. They looked each other and ended up into mutual laugh.

Here came the beginning of something new that was very soon going to derail things………

 To be continued....................

18.WHAT'S S J ?

"On the globe of my heart there's only one ocean and only one continent: NIKITA "

Next evening after the hospital incident....

Ronak visited Vir's house...

‘‘What’s up man? HoW’s health?'' asked Ronak

‘‘Not good, not at all, it’s been two days and still I ....am ....running ...out ....of ...strength to ....speak... up'' Vir was doing gargle...When Ronak came

‘‘Haven’t you taken any medicines yet?'' asked Ronak

‘‘What medicines yaar? All have been gulped so many times and this damn gargle water is so hot that I was wondering even if my throat will get ok  though it won't be possible for me to talk because  this hot water intake has burnt my throat walls.''

''Ha ha ha!, but you should have taken care of it'' Ronak was having pity on him but Vir was still extracting humor out from his miserable condition...

 ‘‘Anyways, let’s leave this part. OK! As I have a little bit of problem in talking, so I want you to speak and to help you regarding the content of your speech, I have a question for you '' Vir continued...

‘‘Let’s go to the terrace first, little bit of suffocation is here for you to answer me ''

They went to terrace; cool breeze of festive air was flowing, making the atmosphere very pleasent, high beam flash from the fair beaming straight towards the sky that was looking amazing from the terrace. Air was about 3 kms away, Sound of that was come into their audible range, but was not making noise

'' Ok!, so Mr. Ronak tell me about your past two yrs after leaving township''

'' Well, I had left for other good school, because that school couldn't help me to get a premier graduation institute, but it went out not so good so I opted for Coaching this year, however the institute where I was studying was not so good but it’s headquarter here was excellent, which led me here.   That’s it!'' Ronak was not so fluent in delivering that speech but not even suspicious too...

“That’s it! It seems too short speech, How can we manage with this short speech for whole evening, it’s needed to be elongate .ummm……..mmmmm Ok another question, sort of multiples .so get ready. ” Vir told Ronak who was smiling at Vir. Ronak was too smart guy. He knew very well what Vir about to. He was just waiting for correct question to ask to...

“What is SJ? Why do you come here? Is it related to Nikita? Well I am considering the fact that you have already proposed her in final year of high school as you had told me before” Vir had hit the target, now he was just waiting for an explosive hot matter to come up.

“Aha! You are too smart Vir!”

“Yes I am! Don’t put any doubt on it ever!”

“Ok then listen! After Jagdeep Incident, she also started to hate me, but I proposed her, she brutally rejected that offer and that was really unbearable for me so after the results of class 11^th I left the town without giving any reason to anyone. My mom was there in the city teaching in K.V, which made my admission easy.  I merely had visited Town after that. But I had to tell you that was why, I called you when I came to town, however you already got aware of that incident. For me things had changed, things were never been so unpleasant in the town, her memories haunted me there. I never felt myself so low ever in my life, I was losing myself. Whenever I saw her there; it dragged me down towards the poverty line of happiness. For her, a non-ending line of options was there to please her but for me she was the only one; she had the world at her feet while I didn’t even have two dimes to rub together. The day when she discarded me something inside me had snapped and I really had to get rid of that. At that time my only survivor and friend was Aanya, I worked out my frustration and temper the sting of loneliness with her even though Nikita was a dump crash for her, she never liked her, but just for my sake,  just to recover me from my miserable condition she even forgot all the rivalry. If she was never been with me there, then I would have been devastated for sure. My case was so harsh that even if I would have some other one in my life and if I wished to give her everything that she wanted from me, I couldn’t because they were gone, they were broken After board exams when you guys came here for coaching, Aanya and Nikita both were in the same hostel, Aanya made friendship with her. Aanya converted that impossible into possible.  She convinced Nikita for me, She showed Nikita, the real me.  Nikita gave me another chance. My fate stepped in and dealt me a sweet card. We started to talk, and soon things again changed although this time it was favorable, she had come back into my life like a sudden flame blazing and streaming into my heart, I didn’t know what Aanya had done but I got her, that was the only truth I wanted to face. When Nikita accepted me on the first day I stayed up all night contemplating the certain agony, I knew that would be mine if I was to lose her again.”

Ronak was on his full flow to express all his unsaid feelings to Vir, The box had opened fully. Speech was going long, for the first time Vir was in listening mode.

Ronak continued

“It was an overnight journey from my home to here, I used to come here every alternate Sunday, we spent whole day together. I can still remember those days of monsoon. Those were the most romantic days of my life I ever had, those walks in the central park, those rains had wiped out all the past pains. Misery was past tense. Even though situation were indifferent to the trial of young love armed with warnings and doubts still we gave a remarkably convincing portrayal of a boy and a girl traveling down a very long road with no regard for the consequences. Those were the days when we desperately wanted to spend every waking hour with each other .if you would be there then you could see how inseparable we were!”

 Ronak was blossoming high. He opened up and climbed on the highest point of terrace, spread his hands and tried to feel the breezes...Vir was delighting to see Ronak…Ronak was shouting there..

“I am the happiest man in the world”

Vir settled him down, Ronak continued

“Sometimes we all (me, Nikita, Shikha, Ziya and Aanya) went out for Movies, dinner or else, we were really having a good time, some time we don’t agree on much, in fact we rarely agree on everything, we fight all the time, we challenge each other every day but I grin and bear that eventually cause I am dying to see even a glimpse of smile on her beautiful face and when she smiles I can see whole blossoming world on her face but despite our differences we have one important thing in common, we are crazy about each other”

“Thanks Vir for giving me a chance to speak out, I know this will never happen after, what I am saying today, it is for the last time that is why I want to say it all. Yes I love her! I am deeply in love with her, she makes my world splendid. Her love is the best love”

“Do you know Vir!, what the best love means?” asked Ronak

“Hmm may be not!” Vir shrugged that showed his indifference

“I tell you what best love is! The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds.”

“And that's what she has given me. That's what I'd hoped to give to her forever.”

In the terrace ,light was not enough to see the faces of each other, not even they were facing each other but both of them could sense the feeling ,both of them were quiet, only sound that were audible there were of air and long distant sound of fair. After a few minutes Vir broke the silence

“No words man! My mind is locked, neither have I heard about this kindda love nor have I got the luck to feel that, but I was wondering about the life of your so admiring and inspiring love, may be it feels like that for now but will you just picture your love 30 years from now,

40 years from now, what's it look like? Will it last or lost?, well I am lost in it though” Vir couldn’t get the feeling of what Ronak had said but about one thing he was sure enough that he was not into that and was very much happy for that.

“I know you feel lost right now, but don't worry, nothing is ever lost, Nor can be lost. The body sluggish, aged, cold, the embers left from earlier fires. It shall duly flame again.” Ronak explained.

“Ok after then?”Vir asked the next happening

“Then comes Shikha, she never liked me, I don’t know why but there might have chances that she was having a fear of that I was snatching Nikita from her. But I never meant to. Well it took lots of time to settle up but now it’s all Ok.”

“What about SJ?” Vir’s main bugger

“Oh! SJ, ha ha ha, it stands for SWEET JIJU (brother-in-law) given by sweet Ziya. She is really a sweet girl; she is fascinating about our love. I like her, she is just like a child to Nikita, I don’t know how and why but she had lots of conviction on me that give me Goosebumps when I think that if one day for any reason I have to abandon her that will shatter the mirror of her faith on me into which she sees herself.”

“Seems like a small happy family, ha? You and Nikita as parents with a child named Ziya  and Aanya and Shikha as the paternal or maternal cousins, ha ha ha” said Vir

“Well it’s good to see you guys happy!”

“By the way, you are also a member of this family, what would you like to be?” asked Ronak to kept on the humor part of family planning

“Ooohhhoo ho huh! No no no never don’t pull me into it. I want to be out of this, I do well when alone, you can consider me the notorious and uprooted part of the family which is good for family when he is out” Vir  clarified himself to Ronak

“Don’t underestimate yourself every time; you are far better than what you think of yourself”

Said Ronak

“Ha ha ha! My dear you are taking me wrong I am overestimating myself. You don’t know me very well even I don’t know what I will do next. So better we end this family chapter good for now”

Vir continued

“So here is the whole story of last couple of years, I am happy for you pal your ordeal is over now and  it’s time to enjoy” Vir changed the topic

“And I need your help for this, I want you to be with me” Ronak requested Vir

“Oh sure sure! I will. I will” Vir assured him

“Ok bro .let’s go down. My landlady is crying now for dinner, I don’t know what she thinks of herself and her cooking tactics, I have never eaten such a bad food in my whole life but still she push us to eat on time and finish all the items that is served on the plate”

 Out of a sudden Vir’s landlady was on the terrace

“Chalo putar ji khaana kahon fatafat, aaj tumhaare pasand ka khana banaya hain” it –was landlady, so humble ,so polite.

“Are waah aunty ji.aaj to matlab maza aa jayega khaane main, aap bas neeche chaliye hum abhie aate hain” it was Vir, so polite, so obliged, so humble and so as Crooked…………….

To be continued………….

17.A BIT OF VIR

"One of the things my parents taught me, and I'll always be grateful for

the gift,is to not ever let anybody else define me"

“No! No! Not at all...Yeah! But I used to hear from my parents that…I am so intelligent in grabbing things. Whatever I need I make that so important that it automatically comes into mom’s & dad’s acknowledgement. But in the same time they also acknowledge that if that is given to me that will be no longer come in use thereby. I am little bit destructive you know! ” Vir doubtfully said.

‘’ That’s why, I never demand anything, but I persuade them to get that thing’’

“Means you get that eventually, how cunning you are! But it’s not a new thing for children as they used to destroy things which have given to them. Me also used to do that when I was child” Aanya objected on Vir’s parent’s reluctant behavior...

“Yeah! That’s what am also saying to my parents but they always argue that when will I develop my mental status from child to grownup?because growing up should come with responsibilities,if not then,I am only growing old.

“Ok! Now you girls tell me what am I look like? I am not a child anymore but every time I had to prepared myself for an exclusive and fruitful excuse to got the permission from parents before going out for a movie or cricket match and out of 10, there were only 7 that I was remain in my home while my all the other friends enjoyed their freedom, moreover they abused me for not being able to came to play and because of me they had lost the match”

“What the f**k was that, first parents called me ir-responsible and didn’t allow me to play the match and second friends also tagged me the same because I was the whole sole reason of their defeat”  Vir was exasperatingly clearing his point of view that brought some kind of naughty smile on the face of the girls. They were really enjoying the Vir’s childhood ill-treatment.

“But how could they say that, you are good in studies, well behaved” Aanya point out a doubt.

She continued

“And how could they blame you as Ir-responsible?”

“Yes I was excellent in studies as my results has shown but my parents always disrespect me…well that’s not their fault  ...Actually whenever they checked me up while I was studying .I don’t know from where they found a comic book that was hiding in the book”

“I always tried to hide that  but I have noticed that whenever you don’t want anything to get disclose, on the next second when  parents come closure these shit things always happen to pop out from nowhere”

“What a son you are? You really take good care of your parents” Aanya couldn’t help herself from being amused.

“Generally in school days, whenever there was a holiday, they gave me some assignments to complete on the vacation eve.”

“Now on the day of leave, they usually woke us (me n my bro) up early in the morning for study but if anyhow they came to know that I had a match or something, they never woke me up, and as I am the second birth of Mr.Kumbhakarana, I woke up late and when asked them to go…they simply said “my dear..You can go anytime once your assignment gets completed” and whole day of mine was devastated after those few words of affection.”

“Well there sometimes my fault was also intervening into my plans which weakened the trust kind of string in my parent’s world of conscience as we had a relaxing chair in home, in the early morning study. Papa used to sit there in the study room guarding us, so that we didn’t get sleep but when Papa left the room for any reason I fetched that chair quickly and went for a quick nap, well this time I was luckier than the Match case. Out of 10 times, 7 times I got the nice sleep for the rest, my bro betrayed me” 

“That means your bro was the wicked one, but I have seen Bhaiya, he was a nice guy as I have heard, of course I have never got a chance to meet him” Aanya said

“You don’t know him, those seven times when I got lucky not because my bro let me sleep, and it just because he too wanted to go outside after finishing the assignments. Rest three times his indifference made me unlucky”

“Who the hell want to wake up so early in the morning yaar? That is the ultimate snoozing time, when morning fresh cool breeze gives you a scintillating feeling when you don’t want anything from God except to let you remain in the bed”

All the questions were neither strange nor they were uncommon but the way Vir proclaimed those made the situation really amusing for the girls.

“So what do you think of yourself? Are you a kind of innocent or else” Ziya got the chance to get over him and she was rolling….

“Aha! Madam is enjoying ha?” still tough to talked but Vir continued

“Well I used to do mistakes right from my child hood. I never want to learn from the mistakes of others, that is why I have begun so early but  unfortunately I can never live long enough to make them all myself. ”

“Ha ha ha, good reason to commit mistakes without being delayed…….are you really the same guy what you have explained here or it is just a show off?”  Aanya didn’t want to believe that, for her Vir was little bit sincere guy but here situation made her hard to believe on reckless character what he had shown them.

“I am just like that. If you don’t believe then try me anytime and there might be some chances that I can deviate from the character what I have established here but that gonna be very less even meager and if happen then it really will be some unwanted and awful situation like this damn hospital ambience that makes me to feel so, I don’t like this” Vir clarified

“What’s bad in here, it‘s one of the best hospital I have ever seen in my life. Moreover it ‘s Far far better than our hospital in town” Aanya showed her reluctance towards the Vir point of view about hospital.

“Well not exactly like, I hate it actually, since from when my father had met an accident” Vir gave little reasons of his unlikeness.

“What happened to uncle? when was it happened?” Ziya asked worriedly

“Oh! It’s a way over, I was in 3^rd standard then,however it's not about what happened,it's about how you handle what happened ,I had seen what actually the blood was, how really a blood stunk. Whenever I had visited hospital to see my father, I was never allowed to see him because of my age and of my father’s serious condition .But still I got successful to see him one single time, rest of the time I used to wander there in the hospital. So many accident cases, so many rolling eyes. How severe could a man suffer, that was I had experienced there” Vir was moving from different expressions .he was trying to show indifference but the actual expression were reflecting in the eyes of the girls.

“That’s why I always try to avoid Hospitals, but destiny never supports me or luck never favors the brave in my case” Vir switched to funny mode again.

“That’s not true, you come here for your friend not for yourself, so you should feel happy about that” Aanya tried to console him.

“Yeah!”  Sighed Vir.

“That means, blood frightens you” Ziya asked

“Hmm, here’s the problem, I am little bit weird, whatever in my life that had moved me, I never gave them a chance to stimulate me again, for me blood is nothing, I used to cry whenever I saw blood was coming out all though that injury had not been felt by pain, just because of that blood I started crying but after pop’s mishap, things had changed forever, blood and accidents are nothing to me. These are just inevitable happenings, in which you can’t do anything, better you accept that with toughness” Vir showed his indifference. He’s still avoiding the meeting of eye contacts. Every words of him were blended with truth still he didn’t want to clash with her.

“Tough guy ha?” Ziya said

“Not tough actually; but yes! I am good in disguising myself or pretending, it never matters how much you get hurt ,but how much other one is hurting just because you hurt, that really matters. You see ,first time when I met with my father in the hospital, although me n bro were not allowed but my stubborn-ness made my uncle to did me enter, though they got successful to prevent Bro(might be because he could understand things better than me ). Situation was horrible there in the emergency ward, I could hear his pain outside the room but once I entered there BABA was smiling, he silently, with eyes only rebuked my uncle for bringing me there. I was meeting him after a month of accident, we exchanged smile, and he asked me

“So how’s your exam? (Accident happened during final exam)”

“It was excellent”

“That means you will gonna crash the chart this time!”

“Yeah! Definitely”

“So how many movies you have completed this vacation?”

{I am a movie-maniac.I have been madly watching movies since from my childhood days , kind of whim I have about movies. bro didn’t like that so. Baba used to bring VCR or VCP every fortnight or in any occasion. We started to watch movies in the evening and ended up in the next morning with all guys deep in sleep and me, still waking, swelled eyes with a will to have more. Our neighbor had a VCP, so sometimes without my parents’ permission I visited their house to watch movie   }”

Vir got silent, he was looking outside, and slight down pouring was taking place. People were running here and there. Vir was smiling deep in soul.

“What’s this? How’s this possible? .Rain in the month of October without giving any signal, even the sky wasn’t giving any sign of cluster formation in the morning. Not even yet” Ziya was surprised to see rain, Monsoon was past tense there. It was really weird to have rain.

“Hey Vir, why are you stopped, what did you say to uncle? Why are you smiling?” She was surprised to saw Vir’s halt, his smile and the rain outside.

“That was the month of May and Monsoon used to come in month of July, but it was raining outside at that day too, same as it is raining now with no previous sign, no clouds but it was raining” Vir’s reminiscence made him almost still.  He was as quiet as he never did that to himself before…

“There is no fun without you Baba! You come back home, your return will be my movie.”

“After that I couldn’t understand the next happening, because uncle just lifted me and brought me outside the cabin. After then, I never got a chance to meet him until he came back to home after Six long agonizing month. After that incident I had heard my uncle’s words to my MOM that

“Both the father & son are almost equal; both are professionally expert to hide their pain inside.”

He also told that

“For Your husband, it can be easily understood but for your 8 yr boy, this is not good, don’t let him pretend things, it will give him excruciating pain in future”

“Well, at that time neither I could understand that nor I had cared enough for that.” After this word Vir again wore a silent cap, Rain had stopped by then. A bright bow shaped VIBGYOR was blossoming in the sky that gave the clear view from the Balcony of Vir.

After five minutes Aanya broke the silence...

“You are really a great son of your parents”

“Ha ha ha! Kahaan yaar! .When my parents are in a bad mood, everything that happens in my house is my fault. I don't know why, but it is”

“80% of problem or tension of my parents are all condemned in the name of me, sometimes it gets positive vibes towards 90 but never less.5% or less they have quoted for bro rest all from other world other than their children”

“Well I am not the one to claim that, these all data are retrieved from my parent’s news agency”

“I remember, once Ronak’s mother had complained to Pop about me, on the very next day he came to school and beaten me cats and mouses in front of the whole class”.

“You are such an idiot and infamous too” Ziya said

“But I like that” Aanya said that as from all the seriousness Vir had turned the table. Situation was taking the light.
"OK guys! cut the crap.that's not what I am!.I never showed up this part of me to anyone,don't know where the catch is?" Vir contemplating to himself in the soul where he was opposing himself to open.
"Don't try to cease yourself,you are human too!!" Aanya very well realized his situation ,she didn't want to provoked him all though she wanted him to open up by himself.

"Sometimes, some feelings are better to be hidden than to screw up everything & end up nothing"answered Vir.

“Hey buddy! Kaisa hain be?” it was Vidish.
"Muaaahhh dost,you are my ultimate survivor,you don't know what you have done to me dear"

"tu thik to hain na!(are you alright?)" Vidish was astonished to see Vir's sudden abnormal behavior

“Ae le!!! Mujhe kya hua?” Vir said that and got a horrible look from Vidish but later both ended up with a happy node that brought a cute half smile on someone’s face…. she tried her best to hide that because she needed to be angry on someone  but failed.
Vir return back the smile but it was full one......
“Hey SJ, how come you so late?” Ziya asked to Ronak, Ziya get excited to see Ronak. She really liked him. She was Very fond of him. Ronak’s arrival gave her a flash on her dull face because of the few past emotional moments with Vir.

“We were in the Nancy’s room, Doctor’s report has come. She is now perfectly all right but need some medication and rest. She will be discharged by this evening,her father is coming here to take her back to Bombay, Nikita and Shikha are there talking to her” Ronak continued

“Ok Vir, don’t waste any more time. You and Shikha please go back, we are here to take care of other things, take some rest and food, you both look miserable”

“Ok, I am going but first let me see her first.” Every one entered into the Nancy’s room.

“Hello Miss down dull, how are you?” Vir directed towards Nancy, he was still coughing.

“I am good, pretty good actually” Nancy was really looking better.

“Aha! Pretty good, huh!.....keep that pretty with your personality not with your health Mam! If you too have problems with height then why didn’t you tell me…I mean us before” Vir was mysteriously rebuking her that in no ways feeling rude to her, she was just smiling accompanied with others.

“Anyways take rest, I have to manage things, can you answered that if anyone asked me where was I last night.” Vir asked

“Yeah! Tell them you were with me and Shikha in the hospital last night, they will understand, it’s pretty obvious, sorry not pretty…it’s just obvious….what’s the problem in that” Nancy said

“hmm, yeah it’s obvious ,no problem with that ,I can say that but actually I was thinking of skipping that hospital part, rest I will manage that you both girls were with me LAST NIGHT, HA HA HA!!” Vir was laughing high

“Hey, Vir?” Nancy said by watching towards Shikha.

“What?”

“You are an A**H**E!!!!!!!!” both Shikha and Nancy shouted simultaneously.

“Ae le! What’s new in this, those pretty girls standing on the door already acknowledged that (read 11.MOMMENTS)”

“Anyways! Will you please honored me to gain some benevolence to come with this A**H***?”Vir told Shikha

When they both about to leave Nancy called him back

 ‘‘Hey Vir! well may be it’s our last meeting cause I am leaving this place for life today so I want to tell you something, You know what?'' said Nancy

‘‘What?'' Vir turned to look at her

‘‘You are so different from what I anticipate.''

''Really? What did you anticipate?''

‘‘Well I thought...I mean, guessed from your appearance, first look, gesture and all that you would be the quiet types.''

‘‘Of course I am the quiet types, who say I am not? Just that I talk a lot before I go quiet.''

 “Thanks a lot for what you have done for me, it would never happen if we didn’t go for ride but for the same reason I have got such a great and notorious friend like you”.

“Hmm! In that case only thing I can say for this moment of time, be what you are and wherever you are, give others the same chance to say these words for you, what you have said for me. You will get friend greater than me”

With these words they exchanged a smile. Vir and Shikha left
on the way Vir asked Shikha " What is SJ by the way?"
"ask Ronak"Shikha shrugged......................................

To be continued....................