Sunday, 20 January 2013

28.Change


Things are never so easy to handle until and unless you have some sound support to tackle with the consequences. Every day we have choices. And every night we must sleep with the consequence of these choices. The fabric of our life is sewn by the cumulative consequence of our choices; all of it engineers our existence. And it’s all about choices what makes us different. Change can be frightening...but sometimes the consequences of remaining stagnant are far more terrifying.

Things were not at all the same after Aanya returned from her Brother’s marriage. Everyone in the girl’s camp was behaving erratically. It was hard to say whether it was on the bad way or good. All were liked to be silent all the time. No talks no chit chat. Vir was all oriented towards studies. After Nikita’s accident, Vir’s rank was running all time low. He couldn't able to manage his time for studies as well as for the new group. Boys had been shifted to new house.  Many a times Vir went to Ritesh’s Home for study .Nikita and Ronak were all along with their sweet intimacy and they really didn’t want any kind of disturbance. Nikita had been fully recovered from her burn injury though scar was remaining there but emotionally as well as psychologically the injuries had been the past time talks... Shikha was busy in her medical preparation. Vir used to accompany her on the way to her coaching Center  They have reformed a good relationship; it was more of a sibling than of just friends. Vir used to wear a Red Jacket that was the only Jacket he had and he loved it... but Shikha hated that Jacket. She had a good taste of fashion. Vir is like a model for her, a downgraded model to be precise. What to wear what not to, the whole sole agency of decision making was with Shikha. SJ (Ronak) was happened to be an elder brother for Jiya, and lots of admiration are reflecting back from Jiya’s side. Things are happening with a very strange and lighter note. Jiya was Mamma’s girl for Nikita…Whenever Nikita treats her the same…Vir and Vidish are the one who were just on their laughing stick and that went for long.. Sometimes Jiya seemed understanding things but overall acceptance of situation was beyond her capabilities. Day By Day Things were going very pleasant but behavioral understandings were changing. For Vir, it was like full on refreshers .It enriched him whenever with them. He didn’t care about any kind of strange happenings. He was happy not only because of them but also because his ranking was going up.
Whatever was happening they wanted to make it stagnant, they didn’t want to step on the change drive.
Although Ronak was meeting with Nikita every day and night, still on weekends he had to call her and had to stayed with phone for 20 minutes at least. It was the time when 3 minutes of pulse cost 2 rupee. Vir and Vidish also shared some minutes of call but only Ronak had the privilege to waste most of those 2o minutes.
After a mild start of winter, everyone welcomed the bone chilling temperatures as well as cold winds flowing all around. Ronak and Nikita were also on the same flight .No weather, no constraints could make them apart. Sometimes because of landlord’s restrictions or too busy public phone booth, they couldn't talk when they returned back to their residing place .Even Vidish and Vir were also flying in the same air of happiness. It was different kindda good feeling. They were in an adulthood mesmerisation. Everyone wants a good friend circle outside the home where they can feel free and happy. Same was happening with the boys as well as girls. Everyone wanted to be with each other ir-respective of time and rules.
So once phone problem came .Boys decided to buy a Cell Phone, It was the time when mobile was not an easy affordable item. Price was too high, bulky in shape. Rental charges were Very high for both incoming and outgoing. But what could anyone do if you are living on the pinnacle of pleasure and mere a highly priced bulky phone is obstructing your path. Finally a MOTOROLA with OASIS network operator was bought. A silver coin of 10 gm also comes along with as a gift. It was a time when having a cell phone was the great tag in status and they were having it, though they didn’t have the minimum capital to last for the whole month but they have gained the status.
The day Aanya arrived, everything was normal. Whole group went to station to welcome her. They reached hostel at 10 pm. boys took leave from there.
While returning
“Is everything normal” asked Vidish without addressing anyone.
“Why are you asking this?” asked Ronak
“No I was just wondering, something is going on about which I am unaware of.” Vidish replied
“Aha! I don’t think so.”
Ronak continued
“What say Vir?”
“Yeah! Everything is normal. However the scenario in the Taxi (auto) was different but everything is normal” Vir was busy in singing the song which was playing in the auto. It was old song but Vir can’t remember the lyrics so he was just murmuring and was flowing with the tune.
“To whom you are asking, he doesn’t have such kind of capability to understand things” Vidish carelessly said”
But Vir Heard that
“What did you say?”
“What?”
“What did you just say?”
“I said that you are hopeless as well as brainless” Vir’s indifference and the present complicated situation caused Vidish to spurt out his anger.
“Hmmm” Vir took time to reply and finally the bomb fussed
“I think you are right”

The next day a trip to nearby garden was planned.
It was Sunday evening. Weather was too good to walk, especially in the garden. Garden was beautifully fabricated for the walkers with walking tracks.  Various lamp poles in the park were also having speakers fixed, were playing soothing music. Children, family, and couples everyone was there in enormous amount though park was too big to accommodate many more with very handsome amount space for each one.
 Among the walkers there was also a group of 7 with a sub group of 3 or 4, that was sometimes 3 or sometimes 4.
Ronak & Nikita
Jiya, Vidish & Shikha
And
Vir & Aanya
Or
Ronak & Nikita,
Jiya, Vidish & Shikha,
Vir
And Aanya

“So how was the marriage” Vir asked
“It was good”
“You haven’t invited us?” Vir teased
“Because I knew, you wouldn’t come” a bit rude she was but tone was equally soft to left the rudeness
“Hmm, you know everything na!”
“Yeah! Sometimes I know everything, sometimes nothing”
Ananya continued
“And that hurts”

“Things change, you can’t be on the same earth every time.” Said Vir
“Yeah! Things are not the same every time not even people”
“So what do you think of now?” Vir tried to change the topic as it was going somewhere in the deep sea of desolation.
“I just want to go home” Kind of frustration that wanted to come out but somehow she prevented it.
“And why so?” hard try but with a very soft voice Vir asked.
“I am not feeling good here, something is biting here”
“I have been trying so much, but it seems that everything goes in vein.”
“Well, I can’t say that I know what you are feeling now coj I don’t but ….”
“Yeah! You are right .you don’t know and please don’t try to…I am perfectly OK and I can manage myself…I expected much earlier but not now …..It was my fault and I have to solve it”
Vir stopped there, wait for a while to check whether she was talking with him or she was showing him his irrelevancy there or she was just with herself only.
There are sometimes when you have to decide who is important: the person, whom you are with or simply yourself.
Vir simply took the former and stepped towards the other group of Vidish.
“What Happened to her?”
“Who?”
“What happened to Geli?”
“Don’t know” said Vidish indifferently.
“Do you guys know anything on that respect?” Vir asked to the girls.
“Naah!” though synch came up from both the girls still the voice contained uncertainty and was wobbled.
Everyone went silent for a while….
“That means there is really something”.
“How can you say that?”
“Coj your eyes can't hide what you feel inside.”

“If she is upset, then you should console her” said Jiya.
“And what if she don’t want to?” asked Vir.
“Inside every confident girl is a fragile princess waiting to be saved. And for that you can help her...” Jiya tried to divert the topic.
“The same sentence I have heard earlier”
Vir continued his irritation
“But Why me? Look guys! I don’t want to disappoint you but I have a manufacturing defect, I really don’t know how to cajole her or any girl and especially when I really don’t know why someone is disturbed”
“You are such an idiot…too much opportunity lost will cost you someday” Shikha continued
“So now if she is angry or disturbed then means either you guys are not working well or you are not good enough to make her happy” Shikha teased him
“Well then I would prefer to leave as it’s not a good time to have any kind of ir-relevant sweet-talk with her… ”.

Next Day:
Day start was little different, Ronak was acting weird. Phone was continuously ringing. Vidish was also a bit tensed. Vir was behaving a bit strange for the others two as he was acting normal as a usual day, but the day was not as usual as it was supposed to be. In afternoon they got a call from Jiya to meet up in a coffee shop.

In the coffee shop.
“Listen guys, we have called you to make an important decision…” so frustrated Aanya was looking on them to gather the attention of the boys.
Jiya was almost keeping mum, she was disturbed but on the verge of understanding something.
 “We have been tolerating many things for so long, now it’s time to make up our mind.
Aanya continued.
“They are trying to dominate us in everything and on every step.”
While the discussion was going on Ronak was trying very hard to persuade them. Vidish and Vir were fighting with each other for the cricket match they had played in the morning. They were not interested at all in those so called Girl’s matters. Their discussion was irritating Aanya more. It seemed that there has been a bifunctional or   board discussion between Aanya and Ronak
And other three were just there to listen ultimate verdict which gonna come up.
Meanwhile waiter came and distributed the Menu.
Vidish and Vir took the menu rest other were given back to him.
“Yes Sir, what would you like to take?” asked waiter.
“What do you have here?” Vidish just reflected
“Sir we have different shades of coffee here, espresso, Irish, latte, cappuccino, macchiato, mocha, or americano….and many else” waiter was on the way to open the whole bunch of categories of coffee before he stopped by Aanya
“One espresso for me”
“What is in expresso, what kind of expression it contains….?” Very innocently Vir asked
“Sir it’s just a concentrated beverage brewed by forcing a small amount of nearly boiling water under pressure through finely ground coffee beans.”Waiter gave the technical definition.
“Wow! So nice to hear…ok,make that five…as we all here to intensify the buried expressions….” Vir ordered but avoided the weird stare from Aanya.
“Sure sir, will that be all?” Waiter asked.
“Haan yaar! We don’t have resources more than that” Vir’s mocking was real fun but the time was not good.
Meanwhile with all break ups and hic ups Ronak and Aanya were still busy in reaching some kind of judgment but seemed lost somewhere.
Coffee came and drank but no additional expression comes up. Things were so deep and heavy at that time that not even espresso was any help to dig out some laughter from them…..
Espresso is basically base of other coffee; it was a bit bitter in taste. Whole discussion and unpleasant ness was transferred into the coffee.
As Point of discussion diverted, Vidish and Vir took leave from there.
“yaar! Need to leak somewhere, com’on fast!” Vidish was in hurry, he was frightened from getting wet.
“What somewhere? We are in INDIA…it’s our birth right to leak anywhere we want” they went to near under constructed building.
“The happiest time in the world is when you are leaking under the blue sky” Vidish’s bladder pain was converting into the melodious tone of philosophy.
Suddenly their attention was grabbed by some shouting nearby…the land lady of the building was shouting, both the leaker raised the pressure to finish up early. When no result came out of shout, she suddenly started throwing stones on them...Vir and Vidish were just about to injure if they didn’t run from there.
“Ye accha hain…inside we can’t understand anything, outside people can’t understand anything,”
“What would happen to her building, if we sprayed there?”
“Can’t even make us to get relax” when they reached the restrau, Aanya, Ronak and Jiya were waiting for them outside.
“Where have you been guys...?” Ronak asked
“Nowhere we were just checking out, how soothing this place is…?” Vidish tried to avoid the case.
Finally girls took an auto and left
“Bhai what the hell is happening here? What point was Ananya trying to drive?”
“Nothing, just wait for a while; everything will get cleared by today evening”
Ronak continued.
“Ok guys, I have to meet Nikita.You guys go home, I will call you later.”





To be continued…………………….













Sunday, 22 April 2012

27.Meeting



DIARY LOG :0209

20’FEB
‘‘Hi, kahaan hain tu?'' She asked
''Bharatpur'' I said
‘‘Why there?''
‘‘Friend’s marriage''
'' Bride or groom?''
‘‘Bride''
‘‘Tu Delhi to aaya hoga?''
‘‘Yes''
‘‘Why didn't you call me?''
‘‘I didn’t have any plan to meet you''
'' I don't know, you are coming tomorrow. That’s it!'' She ordered.
‘‘Can’t say anything now''
‘‘You just shut your damn mouth, Suchi has already told me that, you have a flight to catch tomorrow from Delhi,''
Assailing continued
''I am taking off from office tomorrow and you are coming. That’s final''
10 seconds silence
‘‘Bolega kuch?'' raged voice still on.....
‘‘Nothing such, am following your order to keep my damn mouth shut''
 ‘‘Shut up! What do you think, you will get an escape so easily from me, never kamine, it will never be done.....''

NEXT DAY
1000 hrs, NIZAMMUDDIN STATION.
‘‘HEY Suchi, where are you?'' I called Suchi
‘‘Sorry yar, can’t be there, I have to go to uncle's place, some urgent work have come'' said Suchi
‘‘Ok, no problem dear''
'' You don't worry, she will call you in a while”
‘‘Ok''

Phone rang
''Come to Pandav Nagar, near AKSHARDHAM crossing,’ she continued
“Ask to any auto rickshaw, he will take you there...”

1100 hrs, AKSHARDHAM turn
Pandav Nagar, residential colony in East Delhi, India. It is situated by the Main Mother Dairy Road and NH 24.The back side of the colony is across the road from the famous AKSHARDHAM Temple.
She was supposed to be there at the back side.
It's been more than three years since we last met. Today, I was going to meet her again. My heart beats were but obvious on high. Blood was pumping in higher rate than ever. I  always wanted to avoid meeting with her to save myself from this situation. Everything was seemed amazing to me, even though I didn't even know what kindda reaction she had stored for me.I thought I reached little earlier..so I continued with my waiting session.Meanwhile I surveyed the area, I was sitting in the hard well rock of the road side, over viewing the whole area, dreaming about walking together on the footpath some day. A distant away, Akshardham Temple was giving the clear look, now a days it is a pilgrim kindda thing, no one ever wants to lose the chance of visiting it. AKSHARDHAM Temple or Swaminarayan Akshardham, the Hindu Cultural complex in Delhi that displays millennia of traditional Hindu and Hindu culture, spirituality and architecture. Who the damn one would wanna miss the chance of visiting a Guinness book of world record holder of world's largest comprehensive Hindu Temple? The grand ,ancient style ,ornately hand carved stone temple has been built without structural steel, all though it is in dispute with three other temples in Tamilnadu ,those are claimed to be larger than AKSHARDHAM. Anyways the mesmerizing beauty almost made me unison with its flow that attracts almost every tourist who comes to visit Delhi. It showcases the essence of India's ageless art, borderless culture and timeless values... Anyways I decided to let the ancient beauty to had some patience in making me visit itself as I was eagerly waiting some other beauty to show up. 
Phone rang again...
‘‘Have you reached?''
‘‘Yeah! Waiting for you to appear''
‘‘Cross the road, you will see me.''
I lifted my eye range to cover up few more meters of trajectory, she didn't show up...road was overpopulated with traffic, it would gonna take a while to cross. There were lots of diversions, that made my destination somewhere in doubt. I tried to break through the traffic mob. Penetration showed some effect. Something came into the vision area.I caught sight of a girl standing just on the other side of the footpath,examining what was probably the latest car that she had never seen before. She was there. She was really there. The whole three years of unforgotten memory was there. The mesmerizing feeling of everything was there....she was in black, complete black with some leftover that was her charming, pearled face...long black hairs were not in a mood to rest. They were flying, synching with the air waves, few strands were all in trying to cover up the leftover (face) but a smooth flap of her left hand was continuously dominating them. Arteries were working beyond their capabilities coj of my heart that raised its pumping speed of almost never. Even I could feel by mere placing the palm on the left side chest. Black velvet top with a black jeans and black open flying hairs, it was  making me perplexed .She was like dipped in chocolate, bronzed with elegance, enameled with grace, toasted with beauty...a secret cup of gladness, a native land in neither time nor space, MY LORD. She was the beauty in a black...all of sudden a heavy vehicle just appeared in front of me. It was Tata 409 almost skidded to get a halt. With its entire full break applied.
That woke me up from the world of beauty, brought me back to the reality...I found myself in middle of the road....with full of traffic, just a second away from  severe death...with all assaulting from traffickers’ I crossed the road and reached to her.Even from a distance ,she was more beautiful than he remembered,and for what seemed an endless span of time,I couldn't say anything.

‘‘Tu chal, tujhe to main batati hun'' she continued
‘‘What the hell do you think of yourself?''
 “Nothing” My voice was still dyeing in my throat.I was still not in a state to feel her presence, Situation took me somewhere else actually. I was in some other world accompanied her, all though she was standing real in front of me. Her imaginary presence was giving me the immense delight to have with her but that was in the other world and I wanted to be there for entire life. If I was given a chance I would have abducted her to from her world to that imaginary world of mine. However she was still standing there and was pouring on me. Every spoken word of her was giving me no sense but a breeze of fragrance, the fragrance of memory what we had earlier when we used to meet so frequently. There was something that continuously loosing charm, charms of living, charm of rejuvenate.
“Oye kahaan hain? Where have you lost?” She jerked me.
“Huh! Huh! I am here”
“What damn thing is in your mind? Who the hell is she?”
“No One!”
“Then why aren’t you listening to me.?”
“I am listening…”
“Huh! You have changed”
We went to her house. It was a flat. First floor, single BHK. three tenants; She was residing with  Suchi and Suchi’s friend, unknown to me. Room was at its utmost cleanness, a kitchen right to the entrance, one mattress was in veranda and other big one in the bedroom. No bed with legs; all were in the floor but with pure shine. I had 4 hrs to catch the flight. The only 4 hrsto question all the unanswered. The only 4 hrs, to meet her for the eternity, with no hope in mind to meet her up again.
She brought some flour and started preparing food for both of us as it was going to be lunch time.I was staring at her in the kitchen. She was still taking my breath away and her every glimpse was pushing me back to those old days when we used to have weird conversation and thought if anyone heard us right then, we’d be put into a mental hospital. But today we were dead silent. We had many things to speak but we had developed the pre talk manners in past three years that restricted us to start the talk first .I had decided to not to fight with her in any case. Even I discarded all the motives of questioning anything. The innocent she was looking, made me helpless. I just wanted to spend some good quality time without wasting any, on past grudges. That would never gonna fruit up, I knew that well. Already I was running out of time and my questions would never be answered. She had shattered my all rules of meeting that was just been made for her especially.
Huh! What could I do? Sometimes you have to break the rules to free your heart. It was an ultimate motive for attaining bliss of the self, with just a few compromises for those few special souls accompanying you.
“So how’s your professional life going?”
“It’s good, company is growing, salary is good, and perks are good” I told with the constrained mood.
“And personnel?” without making eye contact like the previous question she apprehensively asked.
I did wait sometime to get some eye contact but she didn’t raise up “it’s good, Mom dad shifted back to native house, was busy there quite a while, now all settled, job place is also good, new area, new places to visit, new friends, it’s good” I answered very firmly. She was still busy in making food, no raise, and no reaction.
“And how’s yours?”I asked
“Too busy yaar, office to house and house to office, whole day is just vanishing in this commuting, that’s why I have shifted to Suchi’s” she continued
“Office is also near; it saves my lotsa time, now I can spend some time with friends” She was so free in saying this things which made me realize that how much bounded she was feeling while questioning me.
“Still you can’t spare time to call some old friends” I teased her
“I knew you would put this question sooner or later but the answer is …. ” she stopped for a moment then started
“Actually matter was what…..”Again stopped
 I interrupted
“There is a subject called behavioral science where ‘actually’ term only comes first, when something lie or some uncertain thing is to be said”
“And I don’t want you to bother for just a silly question…”
She responded nothing…

1300 hrs: 2hrs left
Lunch was over;  to relax some, we went over to bed room. Room was artistically managed. One laptop with reliance net connect. Rack was fully decorated with different crafts and sheets. Mattresses were lying on the floor with glossy multicolor bed sheets all over of it and a big size glossy off white Cashmere Blanket. I was sitting at the door side diagonally opposite to her. A few feet distance of us was going to be miles of, in just a few hours. The only thinking that was spoiling me there was, how to devoured those few feet but I couldn’t .I was lost on a wave then after, dream on, on to the heart of the sunrise, sharp, distance. How could the wind with so many around me, lost.
“Have you found someone?” She asked after thousand of waves get settled down.
“Nope! Not yet” I said
“And you?”
“Na! not yet too”
She continued
“But why not, any girl gets you up till yet? You are too good for any girl” {
“Hmmmm” I shrugged.
“What about you? Can’t you forget him?” I asked
“He is gone case, He is nothing to me…….but it will take some more to heal everything and until then I don’t want any other one to play with me….”
“But some other one can heal you up too, even faster. It never gonna be easy if you bring up a wall in between”
“If a girl has a wall up. It’s because it was built brick by brick, lie after lie. Heartbreak after heartbreak, and who else know these things better than you.?”
“Hmmm”
“You know my case well, why you are not mingling yet?” She teased me.
“I am just waiting for you”
She just gave a half smile when heard that.
“It means you have no girl in your life yet! Ha?” She was so profound in her words that I was left unanswered; her obviousness showed me the reason behind her question.
“The Only girl ever come in my life, is you.” I was not in the state to wait for her answer; I already got that in her eyes.
To confirmed my guessing, I repeated again
“The only, that has ever come in my life, is you and it always be.”
“But……I…..mean……I can’t…..” stammering and flickering of her words were in the unison.
“Hey hey hey! I am not demanding anything…we are friends and we always are…and you will always be my first girl after mom……..”
“You know! Suchi told me about that once we came to your college, but I thought it was just a misunderstanding…..” 
“You can never teach a guy to feel the way, you want to be felt. You have to wait for him or her to do it in his own way at his own time. And I know that very well.” I told her with little discontent. Weather was not so hot but still I was kind of suffocated there. I was sitting still there. A bead of sweat dripped down my forehead and rested precariously on my brow. 

14:20hrs
“Anyways, it’s time” I said while watching on the watch, it was giving me the signal to depart.
“Oye! Sit na! Don’t know when will we meet next? , please don’t go now, sit for a while” She insisted me. The way she told me, held me there. I was fixed, down in the memory lane, I was again get stuck with her. 
 “I will miss you even more” She said and continued
“I miss you; miss those days, when we were together; I miss when we used to talk every day; I miss when we could do whatever we wanted; I miss when you didn’t live 5 hours away; I miss when we hugged  like we would never see each other again.”
  “Hmm” I was quite silent, staring her. The flash in her eyes, those seemed so contented
“Didn’t you, miss me…..you should miss me,,,,even you have to…tell me??… tell me when did you miss me? tell me na?” she never lose tenacity, but her innocence would always wiped out the bitterness from it. And from anywhere that brought some smile on me…
“OK! Ok! To be frank and true to you I never did miss you…..never!” I was waiting for some shriek and if I didn’t continue then, it would gonna be the real rain on me.
“I have been missing you since the day we got apart. I miss when you used to tell me the stories of what happened during the week. I miss when we used to stay up all night talking up about the most random shit. I miss when you didn’t annoy me, I miss when everyone was close; I miss when swearing was such a bad thing to do. I miss when things were simple and having fun didn’t require getting baked.  I miss when we didn’t spend hours and hours on facebook or twitter to talk, to meet. And I miss when we didn't catch feelings easily.”
Few things I could say to her ,a Few I couldn’t. I miss Her laugh. Her smile. Her hands. Her voice. Her walk.. Her hair. I wanted to tell her that “I miss you, all day, every day. And you can't even imagine how pathetic it makes me feel, because I don't even know if you miss me back” but couldn’t say.

A mysterious shyness was all surrounded her, she wasn’t saying anything but her eyes were hiding something, that something which was closely relevant, something that ought to reveal. But she was behaving like a mystic. She said nothing but tenderness, affection and a concern for a dupe was clearly came out on surface. Finally she revealed
“I miss when you used to say you would always be there...”
I knew this would definitely come up someday and I ought to answer it
“I was there all the time; I always had an eye on you. I needed you to be strong, I needed you to be self dependent, and already you were running out of belief on someone. I didn’t want you to believe on some other one else to lesson your pain.”
“Do you know what's hard about being strong? Nobody might know and realize it when you're in trouble.  I needed you that time and you were not there….” Said she
I said ….
“Anyways, it was past, nothing can I do now to make that on my side. You got over it…that is good enough for me,,,I expect nothing more than that”
The worst feeling in the world, is knowing you did the best you could and it still wasn’t good enough
I couldn’t bear the situation; I needed to get an escape as soon as possible…

15:00 hrs
I took a leave and headed towards airport...I already got a message that flight had been delayed by 3 hrs. I could easily smell that something more good than me had already been taken place in her life and she was hiding from me.
It almost came into my notice that, after all past happenings which had staggered her, she already got over it. She was happy now. She needed no attention from any one, she just needed to live the life by her own and for anything bad, she had many  to deal, besides me for good. There are certain people who aren't meant to fit in your life, no matter how much you want them to be there and it ‘s good for you to know your worthiness in someone’s life likewise .However if your presence does not add value to someone’s life..Then your absence should make no difference!. I heard this somewhere but never knew that it would fall upon me someday……………
                                                                                            

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Friday, 30 March 2012

26.REALLOCATION AND SLANG

15:00hrs,Vir's Room..

“Hey Vir! What are you doing?” Ziya phoned on chill winter noon.
“Nothing such, just on the way to mars, am shooting all the asteroids come in between but running out of ammunition now”
“What?&$??  Are you lost of your mind?” Ziya surprisingly asked
“Hmm kind of, I am losing my body. I was trying hard to sleep but some damn hard mosquitoes wanted me to have some conversation with them. But I dare refused that. In result, they declared a war and attacked me all together, then out of fury I had killed some, but my mosquito coil gets finished, that’s it.”
“Hmm, so what’s the status now?” Ziya innocently inquired.
“Ae le! What I have said? Shooting asteroids baby but running out of ammunition” Vir had no strength to talk, he had arrived last night after diwali vacations, early morning classes had ruined his night sleep, after a long arduous hours of lectures he returned back to room and on the way to took a nap, when all this mosquito crap happened and on the top of it, Ziya also joined mosquito gang to spoiled his revival.
“Look Vir, I can’t get you what you are up to but I wish you will get well soon……………”
“Thanks…So tell me?” Vir asked
“Hmm…nothing” Ziya skeptically said.
“Arre…what the hell reason did it compelled you to call me?” Vir sarcastically questioned….but was calm too.
“Oh yeah yeah ! I forgot almost………Actually we are planning to go out, for dinner tonight, if you are not feeling well, then we can drop it for today, will plan it some other day” Ziya worryingly said.
“No, No, need not to cancel, I will come. Just need some time to keep my eyes close, that’s it” said Vir
“Ok, then Ronak will pick you up in the evening”. Ziya hung up the phone.

2000hrs, CONVENIO RESTAURANT

“How’s your health Vir, Ziya was saying, you were not feeling well” Shikha caringly asked.
“I am all Ok, thank you” answered Vir.
“So what’s the menu? I am starving” Said Vidish.
“Nice restrau!” Nikita graded the restaurant with pouring some pinch of Spanish accent on it.
“Yeah! Nice ambience, by looking up the interior no one could say that it’s been made in the fuel station, just a floor above”. Ronak acknowledged that by giving some additional some description.
“Why Miss Aanya is so worried?” Vidish asked.
“Yaar, I am worried about my studies, I have been lagging so much since last two months that it becomes impossible for me to match up.” Aanya explained.
“And after couple of weeks, madam will be going for her brother’s marriage” Ziya added up the information.
“Hmm, matter to fret” Vidish responded.
Vidish continued " Beta Vir ,control your emotion,staring is not a good thing at all" 
"I am not staring ,it's just I was thinking something so it doesn't matter wherever my face posture directed "
"and what are you thinking,,,,,if you don't mind ,please condescend on us" asked Vidish.
Vir signaled Vidish to come near ,with a very low voice or near to whisper he said "The worst part of going out with a female friend is that the rest of the unknown hot girls think I am committed to her"
"And tragedy is that they have various options here to think more about that "
Vidish chuckled and rewarded him a salute
"I heard that" a grin look welcomed both of them form Ananya.
"Me too and we would like to say the same about you again" Ziya also joined in the grin.
"If it's start with A and end with E then no need to say ,I can understand your frustration" Vir Cajoled them
"But you are really an A$$ H**E!"  the gr-inner from both of them was so low profile that rest of them were unaware of the happenings.
Meanwhile food had arrived and served.
“Anything else madam?” Waiter directed towards Shikha.
“One ‘Bundi Ka raita’ please!, madam ji just love it” Said Vir.
“So what’s new guys? How’s your Diwali?” Nikita addressed the whole.
“It was good.” Everyone posted their consent letter with the same tag.
“I am thinking of finding a new room. Old room is too congested for two people “  Ronak broke the chain of formal talks.
“Hey SJ, why don’t you find a room for three guys, so that you three can shift there, that will be fun”. Excitingly said ZIya.
“Yeah! Why don’t you do that, make sure that landlord won’t have any problem with our entry” Said Nikita.
“That will be really fun, we could come there, chat there, enjoying, no hostels limits, you guys have to come neither to hostel, nor we have to tolerate our landlady’s screech” Said Aanya.
“That’s gonna be problem, I have to seek out permission from mom-dad, and they will surely denied that.” Vir refused the proposal.
“Why so? Can’t you convince them!” said Ziya.
“Not only problem is with my parent’s approval, but also problem persists with leaving my present roommate.” Vir was in no mood to switched room.
He didn’t want to ruin his main purpose for the sake of his pass time. He knew very well that, once he got indulge fully fledged into them, he will be no more in the race of being a good engineer, his study would surely go drained. Uncle’s STONE statement was still creating echo in between his ears.
“You can make everything possible but only when, if you want it” everyone was trying to convince him. Ronak was all quiet.
“Please Vir, do something Na! It will be great fun. From all the fun we are just one yes away of yours.” Anaya’s words hit him hard or might be he was fading up.
“Ok guys’ enough! I have heard what you have said or feed in to my ears.” Vir continued
“Give me some time to think. But until then no one will discuss it again” Vir ended up the discussion.

FEW DAYS LATER:- IN VIR’S ROOM

“Are you gone nuts Vir? You are leaving us just because of that damn silly girl” Anup annoyingly said
“What the hell are you thinking of yourself, you are going to ruin your life Vir, I must say!” Karun said with the same annoyance
Outrage had burst up in the room. His roommate Vijay was saying nothing, he was quiet. All the others living in the same house was almost on VIR. Vir was accompanying his roommate. Both of them knew very well that decision was taken already. It’s just the informing procedure, which was going on. Vir knew, he was doing wrong but some unidentified force compelled him to do so. He didn’t know whether it was the attraction of fun he had been living in last couple of months or something else, he  didn’t want to aware of reality. He just wanted to flow that was in the motion.
“Listen Vir, one day you will have to pay for that, the decision you have taken will gonna be the most unforgiving and exacerbate deed you have ever done” kind of curse it was from one of his friend.

Same Evening: 1800hrs

Vir: Hi Mom!
Mom: Hello beta, how are you?
Vir: I am good Mom! I have left the old room; have shifted with Ronak near coaching centre.
Mom: Hmm, Finally it happens what I have feared about. The way you were behaving in vacations .I could smell that easily, Anyways nothing to say dear .take care…talk to your baba
Vir: Hi Baba!
Baba: Hello Beta, what’s up?
Vir: first class Baba!
Baba: So beta, Mom was saying, you have shifted your room.
Vir: Yes Baba.
Baba: Well beta, according to your mom, you have done wrong but for me you have done what you want to, and doing your will is the right thing.
Vir: Thank You Baba
Baba: But remember one thing. I don’t know about the decision, you have taken, how much it will support you?
But if it goes wrong, for the time being until it get worse, get prepare yourself for its consequences, it will help you in near future. You will never feel ashamed of your decision then. Never….
Vir: Yes baba. I will remember that. Always…..


2000hrs, Vir’s old room

“Hey man! Hw’s you doing?”It was Ritesh came to visit.
“Hi! Nothing man, just paying last visit to the house.” Vir was drooling in dismay. He wasn’t happy at all.
He was sitting in the porch, watching some kids playing there in the terrace of neighborhood. Diwali lights were still glittering, they were not been taken out. Light was pouring on the open terrace although sky is all lonely; moon was on its verge to appear. A small fraction of moon was not sufficient to lighten up the terrace. Some master bulbs were continuously flickering, that create some reflection on Vir’s face. It seemed like the thought process on which he was running then was setting some synchronization with the flickering lights.
“Yeah! I heard that from Vijay, your roommate” Ritesh continued.
“But you are not looking happy?”
“I don’t know man! What should I feel now, I really don’t know” Vir answered.
“Hmm ! Is this your decision or someone else’s?” asked Ritesh.
“No no no! Decision is all mine but problem is, I don’t know whether it is wrong or right”
“But you are looking depressed, what does it supposed to mean?”Ritesh questioned.
“Hmm, that’s what my conscience can’t figure out,”
Vir continued
“Do you know?  In last few days, I have changed, what I am right now, I was not used to be, I have never ever thought of leaving Vijay. ”
Vir continued
“it’s only me because of which Vijay has come here leaving his house, the day we have reached here, these all guys, Vijay, Karun, Anup, everyone were crying, were missing their home, and I was the one who was consoling them, telling them that “watch me, be like me, don’t cry like girls, I will show you what’s life outside the house” and you can’t believe everyone was stopped except Vijay, he was still crying.”
“That kind of boy he is, and damn me! What the hell I am doing now?”
“Hmm, kind of pseudo Vir emerging now! 100% agree with you Vir, I have never seen you so depressed ever”
“Well I am not depressed, I am just confused, about my doings, I am leaving this house, which is final, and I have done wrong. Now what?”
“Now what, what?” Ritesh asked
“Now what means, what I have done is done, will face the after effects in coming future, now what can I do to rectify myself”
“And the bugger is, Vijay is quiet, he said nothing. No yelling, no hard words, nothing, that is bothering me, Vijay’s quietness killing me,
“Now what do you want?” Ritesh asked.
“What I was wondering that, isn’t it possible that Vijay will yell at me” Vir was really wondering
“What? Are you gone mad, if Vijay is not yelling at you, it’s good Na! Just leave him .What’s the need of this god damn drama?” Ritesh was surprised on Vir’s wondering.
“Arre yaar, try to understand, once he yell at me, I will be free of guilt feeling, it’s obvious that I have done wrong but ,all the other house mates  have done their job of shouting and screeching, so  I am free from them but Vijay’s turn is still left.  ”
“One yell and all mistakes of mine will be considered ok. I won’t have any problem with that”
“What a Nau-tanki Bhai you are? unbelievable. And mean too” Ritesh continued
“Just to lower down your part of crime you want Vijay to take some share of yours, egotistic, selfish”
“Yeah, yeah! I know very well. Chal chal get to your work, do some provocation, rest I will manage” Vir’s face had changed; slyness was pouring on all over his face.
Children were still playing there but Ritesh could see only one big child, that was sitting with him in the terrace, he was chuckling on him, he couldn’t figure out how to treated Vir. After so many thoughts finally he gave up and went down the house to implement the Vir’s strategy.
Within an hour.
“Happy now, everything went on as you wanted. So now you can get some air, free from your so called guilt feeling” Ritesh had made Vijay to pour on Vir a tons of slang.
“Yeah! Now I am breathing perfectly. A great burden just slip down” Vir was contended
“Tell me one thing?”
“Yes dear, you can ask anything, I owe you that much of at least for this great favor you have done” said Vir
“Well in that case, How could you bear so much of gaalis (abusive terms)? Don’t you ever feel for these?  What Fuels your madness?”
“Well some think I’m hyper & some think I’m hilarious. But I just like seeing people smile. I hate seeing sad people. And when I am the reason of my hate, I certainly used to do some madness then, which makes someone relief, that makes me happy as well, else what these slangs are made for?”. Vir’s went all out of his botheration field.
“By the way, everyone should ready for consequences”   Vir never forgot his BABA’s word, no matter in which way he implemented that…
“I’ll never understand you….I don’t know if I’m supposed to try and figure it out or just say fuck you………” Ritesh surrendered finally….
“Hmm. matter of thought, but problem is I have thought so much today. Now at this moment, I have nothing left to think, can we spare it for some other time, I will definitely answer you then .“.
“You will never change Vir, never”.







To be continued…………..